# the . f r e e d o m . WE LIVE in

Monday, June 8, 2009

you set me free. 8:17 AM

1, 2, 3..

Poof..

It's done.
I'm over you. :D

When I say I's stay, no matter how shiit-ly you treat me.
I will stay.
Casue it's just me, I don't give up on any of my dreams so easily.
But once I say I'd go, I'm gone forever too.

Bye melodys-emo-love.blogspot.com

I'd be shifting.
Cause memories should remain as it is.
And cause it's a whole new beginning for me.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

((: Bye bloggie. I love you.

Melody.
I'm finally free.

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Sunday, June 7, 2009

you set me free. 2:55 PM

Okay. I made my decision.
And to think I was thinking of staying.
Cause you went through enough pain.
Because you were going through such a tough time.

It didn't matter if I were at the background and all.

Silly girl. Silly silly girl.

I'm done being stupid.
Or being taken for granted or being stepped on.

Cause boy. I'm much more than a toy.

This round, I'm gone.
Really gone.

All I needed was a decision. ((:
3 months. 3 months. Finally. ((:

All the best you.

I need some time.
Melody.

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you set me free. 12:06 AM

Though we often say we do understand.
We would not really. Until we're in it.
Of course we do understand, but not fully.
We try to picture how it might be, or how might the person feel.
But, from their perspective, things are often more serious than how you think it might be.
Or. It might actually affect them more than how you think it might be.

And though this is a fact,
it doesn't change the fact that a dead man is still living.

He's still entitled to choices.
And his say should not be of any less importance than any of us.

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Saturday, June 6, 2009

you set me free. 10:25 PM

I do not wanna blog about my feelings now.
Cause I'm crazily confused.

I'm gonna try cyphering outside my circle of friends.

My neighbor just asked a retarded question.
Do you wanna go out at night?

Zzz. LOL

Should I layer my hair? It's long already actually.
But becasue it's in a bunch it looks short. ((:

Making choices.
Tell me Lord, what's worth it? And what isn't? )):
Melody

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you set me free. 5:09 PM

Oh shucks. I think I overworked myself. )):
Thurs night was spent mugging for paper.
Slpet for 2 hours. Zzz.
After exam. Catch movie with Diane, Jon, Marcus and all.

Jon came my house to play with doggie. ((:

Change went night cycling with Tpde.
I think the going there was relaxing. Quite relaxing.
Another night without sleep.
But the journey back at East Coast was killer.
I wanted to puke.

Took a bus back. yah. Dope right?
Nearly died then. Slept for an hour.
Met Jasmine, Dennis, Jennis, Ting Hui at 12 for lunch.
Photoshoot started at 1pm. Headed down tgt.
Catwalk pushed to Wed afternoon.

Zzz. Can die. I nearly puked there. I so swear.
I was like okay 2 mins. 2 mins. let me rest.
Thank God the photographers were really really nice.

Finished at 4pm.
Slept at Colin's place for an hour.
He sent me home after seeing my dead expression. ((:
He scolded me though for night cycling yest. But I'm glad I went.

Night Safrai will have to be pushed back.
I can't take it no more.

I can feel throat infection coming on.
Maybe I'd bring my bro to buffet after I wake up.

Feel like pampering him. I'm such a nice sis, RIGHT? ((: hahahas. jkjk. ((:

Daddy and mummy decided to have time alone today. LOL.

I'm gonna sleep. Zzz.
Bye.

Melody.

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Friday, June 5, 2009

you set me free. 10:39 AM

My eyebags~~ Noooo~~
I'd sleep them off next week. Muhahahhas.
Cannot stand them anymore. ((:

last paper at 1~~!! yeahhs. LOL

Smiles aiyah. It's just a matter of mindset honestly.
If you guys think you all can last you guys will last okay? ((:

I think.
Fading of feelings is partly because of the failure to protect your love for the person, get it?
If you refuse to let it fade, it won't fade. ((:
Trust me, it won't.

I think you can either let the fights strengthen your love, or let it fade.
For me, it strengthens mine cause,
I get to see how much the person means to me, that I'm still sticking around. ((:
And how much I mean to him that he's still around.

And when patience runs out and you still can't decide what's the root of your problems.
That's when a breakup occurs. ((:

Your job is not to let that happen. ((:

Tough decisions.
What do you want girl?
Melody.

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Thursday, June 4, 2009

you set me free. 4:33 PM

I love him~~!!!
muhahahahas. ((:
He was happily licking my face.when we took pictures. ((:

He doesn't look too happy today.
don't understand why. ):

Smiles* I do not need people to know I'm kind and help people. understand?
I help people because I genuinely want to make the person's life better. ((:
Not for the bloody fame or woah, she's such a nice girl and all.
In fact, I don't really care if it's attributed to me or not.
As long as the person's feeling okay.
The praises and acceptance are not my motivation of helping people.
Honestly, that's lame. I'm more than that alright? ((:
I may not be extremely confident about my abilities.
But I am dead confident of who I am. My opinions character and all.

Went soap smelling with serene yest.
and I squeezed a bit of it to let it out.
casue cannot smell.
and it went SPLAT.
a huge pile on my nose. HAHA.

hahahahas. yah yah.
she had her fun laughing her ass off man.
Don't understand, why do these kind of things only happen to me? LOL.

hahahas. ((: terminator 3 was a dope show.
go watch if you haven't. ((:

HAHA. Fri night night cycling.
Sat morn. MORE catwalk lessons. HAHA.

Sat night night safari with my familyy~!!!
haha. yup. I planned it. ((: I'm really tying. ((:

Sunday photoshoot.

Going Malaysia next week with serene.
And my family. separately. ((:

New loves~!!

- Nougats~!!! :DD
- Coffeee~!! HAHAS helps me stay awake to mug. :D
- Adam Lamert. :D
- Body shop's aroma therapy. :DD
- smell of lavender. :D

Makes me happy. :DDDDDD

melody

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you set me free. 11:26 AM

In the end, it's the little imperfections that you remember.
The stupid lateness, The dumb accidents that he has, the playing of bears.
the fact that it irks me off when we were out and he just picks up the phone and start chatting like you don't exist. Pisses me off.
And now, you laugh about everything. Silly him.
you look back on all the pics and remember all the sweet times.
you remember creating those memories.
You remember being there with someone really special.
look back on all the notes and you know, deep inside you know.
No matter how stupidly insensitive he is, and he shoots his mouth of whenever,
inside he's a softie, and so so so darn darn romantic on the inside.
looking back at the ring and know, it's a past that can never be replaced.
something you shared with that special some one.
a symbol of what was then, a symbol of the both of you.
a symbol of your love.
and now, a symbol of what's left of the person, a symbol of the past,
symbol of your memories.

It's his imperfections that makes him different.

I can't express.
I'm not given the blessing nor the opportunity to take care of him and be there for him,
so you guys do it. on my behalf. get it? understand?

tears

baby, I'd never forget you.

Melody

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Wednesday, June 3, 2009

you set me free. 11:15 AM

I can't express.

I can't express.

I can't EXPRESS.

So many things. I wish I can.
So much love I wanna explode out.
Life is unfair isn't it? )):

I'm dressing up and going out today.
Just feel like. ((:

Melody.

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Tuesday, June 2, 2009

you set me free. 9:16 PM

Dear Hongyu,

Muhahhahahas. Happy birthday dear.
Loves you. ((:

This is long over due post.
This guy has always been there for me.

Even at the weirdest times like 4am.

I can honestly say, I can never be more grateful for him to be in my life.
Who never fails to put a smile on my face. ((:
And I'm sorry I never thought, I would pissed you off so much,
By not telling you things that pains me time and time again..
and go through things myself. I know you really wanna be there for me,
it's really really good enough for me. ((: it has been and will always be good enough for me.

Thank you.

I'd bring you out. Some where nice to celebrate. ((:

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If i could make a wish for you.
I wish your hair would grow faster.
So I can finally stop teasing you about it.
HAHAHAHAHAS.

hahahas, I'm such a bitch. :D

Melody.

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you set me free. 8:59 PM

Enjoyed my own company today. ((:

-Went for facial.
-Had a good long long rest.
-Watch movie after movie after movie at home.

Been awhile since I did that.

Pamper myself. ((:

This had a lot of emotions? My bro nearly cried. hahahas.
Lousy brother. :X

Dope show.

Go watch please? ((:

Melody.

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you set me free. 10:43 AM

My dear boy playng. hahahas.
yah. thats my finger. hahahhaas.

oh dear. )):

-caught a cold.
-nose getting red again.
-heavy eye bags.
-the pain in my gum affects my talking see how, becomes shh how. -.-

I look like a monsterrr~!!! ))))):
the horrendous effects of mugging. )):

the worst is over for me.
last paper on fri. ((:

go everyone~!! jia you~!!

go me~!!

melody.

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Monday, June 1, 2009

you set me free. 10:55 PM

cause i said I'd make a conscious effort.
Love you daddy.

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today just came and went like that.
i survived on 4 hours of sleep for 2 days . ((:
tml will probably be 6 hours 3 days or something.

casue sat night i went out till 6am.
i had to wake up at 8am and send my puppy to the vet.
den my mum refused to let me sleep after. she wanted me to study soo. yups.

studied for my subs. went for both exams.
visit grandma. to look after her leg.
helped her do her housework.
study for tml's papers
went back school. met serene.
went studio wu open class.

2 hours of sleep dope eh?
now gotta mug for tml's paper. help me leh.
serious. zzzz.

i swear i cuddled at a corner of studio wu and just slept.
like flat in one corner. ((: lol.
the chreo was simple. beats were a bit tough.
but i didn't catch it. sleepy i guess.

fb is nightmare. lol. this one is really bad. can feel.
i dun even know what i'm doing. lols.

i'm blabbering.

melody.

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you set me free. 10:37 AM

Hey all. ((: Hahahahas I'm feeling a lot better. ((:
I have two papers today. Talk about bad timing to feel like that right? Haha.

Last night was hell. Haha. Oh you won't wanna know.
But I'm glad I made it through. ((:

I'm glad she treats you well. :D
I'm happy for you in fact. Hahas.
Always smile. Alright? :D
And though I am forbidden to express the care and sweet stuffs that I have for you,
I'm glad she's there to do it. :D

I'd be happy. No matter who you're with baby boy.
As long as you're smiling alright? :D

Give blessings, time to leave.
If you want what's happiest for the person, you just gotta go.
You gotta let go. It takes A LOT A LOT from me to to say that.
And it killing me, I gotta admit.

But I know I want your happiness. :]
So this I will do.

Call me crazy, but I guess.
This is love. Isn't it?

Becasue I said I'd give anything up for your happiness.

bye baby, blessings given.
heart torn.
Melody.

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you set me free. 12:51 AM

Finding. Searching.
Pieces of my heart.

Where are you? )):
Why aren't you back yet?

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you set me free. 12:28 AM

I chanced upon this song.
and it tore my heart right out.

I'd be okay. I have to be. I have tests tml.

Things I regretted:
-Being too dependent on you.
-Not singing.
-Not cooking.
-Not dancing with you.

But fuck it. It's gone.

Okay, I'm not alright.
But I will be at least.

Back to square one for me.

enough, enough,
Melody.

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