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Hi I'm Melody
18 this year, coming 19. ((:
I'm a Virgo. ((:
I'm born on 4th September
And I wanna be a vet
Birthstone Sapphire. ((:
And morning glory.

speak.your.FREEDOM

I love to express myself. I love dancing.
I love singing. I love animals.
I love modeling. I love reading!
I love French people. I love the language Spanish
I love my piano. I love my 200 dollars racket.
I love my crazy family. I love my dearest friends.
I love him, Jesus. I love witting love poems.
I love the warmth in making people smile.
I love people who love me. HAHA.
I love people who are true to their hearts.

join.the.FREED

free one
free two
free three
free four
free five
free six
free seven
free eight
free nine
free ten

express.FREEDOM

three years of sad confinement
my life is finally falling into alignment
i run out of the cage to greet the sun
and to my new home i will run
fall to the soft grass and heck care to the world
this long awaited life will unfurl
close my eyes and smile so deeply
with the wind blowing so swiftly
a gentle feeling;
yet such twist
the scent of freedom
it does exist...

unfreed.PAST

March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009

freedom.SONG

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So fucking dumb.

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((: went for dance yesterday. ((:
AHhhhh~~ rahim's chero is dope. ((:

Love his style. ((:
And reggae too. ((: yuppieee~~

After that headed to airport to study.
hmmms. ahh wells. ((:
Not like we covered much anyways. HAHA.

My dad and mum went for dance compettition line dance.
And they won second. HAHA. O.O ya.

2nd. ... 2nd?

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Well, there was crying.
There were loads of talking.

"I miss your voice.
I miss your smell."

HAHA. smell. ((: HAHA.

Ahhh~~ guess I'm just too soft hearted after all. )):
I cant say no. can I? )):



Ahhh~~ It's been some time.
And I really missed your touch..
The way your hand fits perfectly on my face.
It feels like I'm up back in heaven.

I need you.

Don't go away again?




I'm sorry it's all about him.
I've been grounded. There's nothing else to type. O.O

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O.O looks like betteles. ((:

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3pm.

My aunt's in hospital. o.O
for some weird operation. hmms.
appparently something grew in her.
Thank god it wasnt a tumor. Or it wasnt cancerous.
Thank God. Scared the shit out of me.

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The beach is a beautiful place. ((:
I went there alone. Calming. ((:

I gotta decide what to do.

I dunnoe. My heart tells me. To forget it.
He doesn mean it. He's just being silly. Just throwing a tantrum.

Baby, by doing this? what point do you have to prove?
What are you trying to say?
You are my guy and I'm your girl.
Does it matter who is wrong and who is right?
Does it matter who apologises to who?
I ask you. By doing this.
Where is this relationship heading?

It doesn matter as long as everything is okay.
Cant you get that baby?
What we have is so so precious.
Or it doesn mean anything to you at all?
We've been through so much.
I read the post which you never posted recently.
You say you always wanted to protect me even from afar.
And I said. All I want is to bring you happiness.
So ahhh~ If it can be prevented. den by all means. yup.

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Took from joey's blog.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6mb1nI_9oKs

Can you protect me.

Can you stay the night?
I haven’t trouble sleeping
I’m struggling to find a way to make it through the day
Can you save a life?
I think I lost that feeling
I’m reaching for a dream that seems to be slipping away
I’m like the sun that just won’t shine

Can you protect me?
I need your words now
My head is filled with doubt
Tell me it’ll be alright
Can you protect me?
My heart’s on lock down
It’s a lonely road and I’m to drunk to drive
Can you protect me?

I’m carrying the world, on my expectations
I’m trying to be everything and now I’m left in pieces
Wash away the hurt
Give me inspiration
Open up a window to a view of something beautiful

Oooohhhh
Can you protect me?
I need your words now
My head is filled with doubt
Tell me it’ll be alright
Can you protect me?
My heart’s on lock down
It’s a lonely road and I’m to drunk to drive
Can you protect me?

Oh, tell me I’m not crazy
Tell me that I’m beautiful
Tell me that you’ll carry me home
When I fall

Can you protect me?
I need your words now
My head is filled with doubt
Tell me it’ll be alright
Can you protect me?
My heart’s on lock down
It’s a lonely road and I’m to drunk to drive
Can you protect me?

Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain. Pain.

Okay. I know it's all emo-y lately. I'd get back to being happy.
Promise. (((:

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Love my new contacts it's BLACK AND PINK. ((:

Pics on performance will be up soon. ((: yeahs. ((:

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Things to do by tonight:

-Prepare for tml's concert. (2hrs)
-Do up darlings puzzle. (2 more hrs)
-Study finish sociology. (1 hr)
-Do FOI tutorial. this week's topic is killer. (1 and a half hour)

Right. Tell me. Am I superwoman?
Cause that seems quite a lot.
HAHA. I dun't really like my sociology group.
I mean they're okayyy. I guess.
But. hmms. they're like a bit prideful and weird.
They look like they can backstab you any any time. O.O
Okayy. I'm scared of them. HAHA. ((:

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Maybe I didn meet up to your expectations. True.
Tuts. Test papers and extra practise. Every single day.
Thats what you guys wanted right? You told me clearly.

But what do you mean by you thought I didn care anymore?
If I got kicked out of the house? Or you guys died?
Even if I am pissed or I am hurt. I'm not heartless.
How could I ever tell you that I am in pain? When each time I do.
You said I was weak. Dumb and Complicated. Stupid. Idiotic. And you didn't love me anymore.
How could I ever share? Would I even share with you?
So I told myself and everyone else around me. I was fine. I kept everything yo.
And by not expressing pain you thought I didn care.
And think that whatever slaps you gave me doesn affect me.
So you in turn, you give me cold tretament and make my life fucking miserable?
So that it'll affect me enough to care? so that I'd place you in high regard so you won't hit me no more?

That's what you told me tonight right? Just?

Did it ever occured to you guys I'm hiding all the pain inside? huh?
It affects me a lot? Just that I don't say?
What you want me to do? I cant tell you. Or tell you.
You just wnat me to pretend nothing has happend after you hit me? It's impossible.

Stupid. How can I not be affected?
Dance practically ripped away from me. Slaps. Hangers. Shouts. Throwing of stuffs.
Use your brains. Cant believe you said it in my face some more.

i really cant believe you told me all of that. in my face.

Aiyah. I know they got their side. I understand I guess.
I understand. But I really think they're using the wrong method.
But I guess I do understand that they're just afraid. ahh wells.

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Ya. I'm home already. this is insane right?
So fucked up. o.O daddys orders. and. hes not home.
Wth luhs. Waste my bloody time.

I cant go out with xinyi they all.
I cant go jam and hop.
I cant meet dance peeps.
I cant go baby's house.
My heart's everywhere.
Except here.

sighs.
some random pics.
project at library.


And ohh baby. I found one one yours.
But you're blocked by keith. HAHAHHAHAHAS.

dope baby. ((:



Have fun xinyi, sc and lh.
All the best for jam and hop performance seniors. ((:
Have fun juniors. ((:

Awww. )): have fun. everyone. )):

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Thanks penguin jasmine. Thanks joey. (((((:
Ahhh~~ I dun't know what I would have done without your support.
Thanks for noticing I was upset just now. I was going to cry actually.
Thanks for telling me to cheer up. And everything.
Thanks for being there. And telling me what to do cause I was damn lost.
Sharing. And understanding. I really appreciate it.

Hell lot.

Jasmine: Don't like that. Don't sad. *Looks damn woried*
Take care. Everything will be okay.
*pats on back* Dun't worry.
Are you okayy?? (((:

Everything you said just now. Really was comforting.
I could feel my heart lighten up. Because I know that you really truely care.
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
It really makes me damn damn happy. damn happy.
So thank you. A lot A lot.

I'm gonna migrate to US. To find my baby.
After I graduate. From Acca or poly.
Either one.

Daddy is just determined to make my day shit.
He said come back for dinner yo.
Dinner is fuckin 7. So I came back at 7.
And he said why you come back so late.
And he hit me with a hanger.
Oh. and that wasn't enough.
He ask for my work.
Accused I was rude to him.
For one. I am already damn scared.
How would I have the cheek to even be rude to him?
Need to get his ears digged.
And he threw a book at me.
For his lousy hearing.

Ya after that I hid in the toilet.
And cried for an hour uncontrollably.
He's so unreasonable.
with baby on the phone with me.

Thanks honey. ((: I feel loads laods better.
I actually felt happy. I thought I'd never smile tonight again.
And you managed to cheer me up.
I swear I would have died without you here.

Huijing: I'm living in a world of hell.
Martin: Then I'd be your guadian angel. ((:
I'd be here for you.
You still have me. Don't worry
If I could, I'd block all the pain for you, If I were there I really would
Your dad mad arh? (HAHA. dman funny) I wanna sue him for child abuse. I really feel like it. (((((: HAHA.

Baby. your words are utter comfort to me.
Thank you. ((: I feel a lot better.

Honestly. I dun care how much my family's relationship improves.
Cause we'd be back here again one day.
Why give myself false hope. Oh Oh. It's improving. And fall into the fuck shit hole again?
I dun't give a damn anymore.
Why waste my energy? You tell me.

I rather spent my life with the one I love.
And far away from all of you.
A year ago. I told martin nah. I cant find you. I got my family to think of.
Ha. Now there not even on my mind.
I'd just send the money they need back every month.

You lost me.
A long time ago.
The day I made the decision to migrate to US and fnd him.
13th Sep. I still remember.

But today,
I relaise, I'm never turning back to Singapore to stay with you guys.
True I'm gonna miss you guys.
But not enough to turn back.

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when life screws around with you.
you fuck it. (((((((:

excatly what I'm doing now.
Just sleeping and ignoring everything around me.
I just wanna take a break from life and get well.
I've been down with this bloody throat infection for 1 week.
And it somehow makes me feel fucked up.
and when I feel fucked up.
every aspect of my life will just fuck up.

Oh and I hate my duckie voice. OMG. hate it.
I wnat my voice back. damn it.

I dun't even know if i am making any sense. O.O
My brain's screwed up.

my dad has the best timing in the world.
somehow he only gives me a hell of a time.
only when I am feeling alone. when i got no one to turn to.

though I somehow guess. walking in the rain relieves pain.
I dun't know. it kind if washes the pain away you know?

okay no link. I know.

Oh man. I dun know what's wrong with me these days. )):
I'm just damn grumpy. insecure. and. clingy. O.O
stupid. I think I'm gonna piss everyone off. )):
ya. I manage to piss martin and my parents and some of my friends off.
I dunnoe what's next. )):

My sincere apologies to all. )))))):

I think I need to recover. I got a huge feeling is my sickness.
I think I never had a bigger mood swing before. HAHA.
Damn. I suck.

Comm skills test was easy. ((:
yeahs~~~ HAHA. though i dun understand why it must be at 9 i the bloody morning.
I'm happy though~ oh and on the way to school.
I saw this big bro piggy back his younger sis to sch.
playing with her and all. ((:
(((: its dman sweet. ((:

oh oh oh oh. after school. i met jas koh on the bridge.
HAHA. we shopped at 1st avenue and bought caps~~!!!
and a puzzle for darling. but. he isn't talking to me. cause i pissed him off.
was supposed to look for andreas. but. hmms. he isn't there.
stupid andreas. HAHA.


HAHA. xinyi~ I got money to return you already. HAHA. ((:
I manage to save. ((: proud of me? ((: lols. loves. ((:

ahhhh~~ i need to do my extensions again soon. it's dropping.
when you freestyle infront of like 50 plus ppl and a bunch of ur hair suddenly drops.
and you have to go over and pick it up?
It is embarrasing. trust me. HAHA. I know.

yups thats all.
done ranting. ((:
back to bed. HAHA.

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I want performance to be over.

I want trainings to pause.

I wanna play with my friends.

I love everyone.

But. I dun't have a choice.



It's all dance. practice. projects. work.

O.O I dun't even have time for my own family satisfied.

I want more time. I need more time. can God give like 48 hours a day. O.O



damn luhs. kill me please?



1 week to performance. O.O



After this performance I gotta go back. To my friends.

Sorry to anyone who feels neglected. huijing sucks at managing her time.

Seriously Sucks.

But I'd do something about it. I would.


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hmms.

I feel empty.
There are less trainings now.
and with all the sudden spare time. O.O

I suddenly feel there's nothing much to do.

Darling says there's a decision to make. )):
Really Good dancers. Are mostly. Alone. Which is really true.
Dancers are usually alone. Besides having dance friends that is. O.O

I dun like this. )):

Rawr~~ I'd find a way. )):

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Loving you more every single day.

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