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Hi I'm Melody
18 this year, coming 19. ((:
I'm a Virgo. ((:
I'm born on 4th September
And I wanna be a vet
Birthstone Sapphire. ((:
And morning glory.

speak.your.FREEDOM

I love to express myself. I love dancing.
I love singing. I love animals.
I love modeling. I love reading!
I love French people. I love the language Spanish
I love my piano. I love my 200 dollars racket.
I love my crazy family. I love my dearest friends.
I love him, Jesus. I love witting love poems.
I love the warmth in making people smile.
I love people who love me. HAHA.
I love people who are true to their hearts.

join.the.FREED

free one
free two
free three
free four
free five
free six
free seven
free eight
free nine
free ten

express.FREEDOM

three years of sad confinement
my life is finally falling into alignment
i run out of the cage to greet the sun
and to my new home i will run
fall to the soft grass and heck care to the world
this long awaited life will unfurl
close my eyes and smile so deeply
with the wind blowing so swiftly
a gentle feeling;
yet such twist
the scent of freedom
it does exist...

unfreed.PAST

March 2008
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HAHA. i swear. Its a great movie~!! HAHA. =DDD
Lols. I finished this dracula book today too~ damn nice.

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my dad kept my labtop. o.O he vent out his fustrations on me.
and I swear it sucks. =( big time. 4 days in a row now.
1 and a half hours of questioning and scolding each day~ won't you just die?
I dun wanna go home~ cause going home means hell for me~

I hope this continues though =.=
Cause no matter how tough it is on me~
I'd totally hate myself if I end up forgiving him.

Is there some place that I can escape to?
Sighs~ I'm waiting.
Another. 5 years. I'd go of to NY and dance. =)

define.FREEDOM

I feel like fuck tonight~ But everyone's busy.

HAHA. omg Rb needs to calm down mans.
"I swear dun't piss me off too much, fuck you refrencing"
Silly boy. =) chill. okays? =)) hahas. =)

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Dang~ hmms. take care okays?
get well soon. =)

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o.O yeahs~~~ went out with joey. =)) hees.

Right. I changed my boots in the end? =) lazy luhs.
going out to eat onlys. =)) HAHAS. =))

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Jia you Martin!!! Jia you RB!!!
Jia you everyone who's drying~~!!!
Omg. it's only this week~~!!! can get through it one. okays? =D
Think positive~~!! =) hees.

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I think i improved. got more control and feel~ =) but still not sharp enough.
dang~~ I wanna dance till I drop and die. =))

dance is my whole world.
hees. can I just quit school and dance for life?? please?? please?? please??

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guess it still hurts. cause. the way we talk is so diff. =]
memories? hmms. i was looking at my past.. posts.

Pain. Sighs. Still pain. Memories. when you're almost part of my family?
The dinner we preaped for my parents? prettyyy..
The stupid meangingless arguements. Aniversary. A lot a lot a lot.
Sighs. =/


Dang snap out of it girl.


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Huijing's sick today. she's down with fever.
Talk about luck. darn. sighs.
Darn hahas. not good day to piss her off yeah? =)










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My dear joey koey loey oey,
=D cheer up okays girl?? I love you loads you know that?
HUGS** I'm always here for you no matter what happens okays?
Big or small. I dun care. =) I'd be here. loves dear. =)

I'd go over your place one day. =DD HAHAHS.
say my place renovating. darn we damn cute luh. =DD HAHAHAHS.
And we'd elope to canada. HAHA. as long as you pay girl. =p

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RB huggss* I love you too okays? =) I do. =)
you're pretty okay by yourself. =DD hahahs.
But when you need me. I'm always here okays? 24/7 =)
as promised. =D

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Sighs. The whole world is emoing. I swear.
Joey. Sc. May. ok almost everyone I talk to. Tragic.

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This post goes out to. May, Fion, Yanti and Amelia. my sweethearts~~
Though, tragically, we're leading our own seperate lifes now.
Know that huijing still loves you guys with all her heart. Serious serious serious.
She'd never ever forget the stupid times we had. Getting high over everything. =DD hahahas.
Chasing guys around. Well for fion luhs. accompany her chase danny around. HAHA.
All the random hugs and kisses when we see each other in school. The pure joy of just seeing you guys. =DDDD
Hanging out each and everyday. =( just slacking and doing nth. those were the best moments of my life.
And shucks. i'm really glad it was with you guys. HUGGS*
birthdays~~ omg. =') the birthdays were a blast. each and every one of them. =') omg.
G9 to G9L to complicated family to G5. hahas. =') omg. we've been through so much together!!


Aw... ='(( everything seems so far away now. All the memories untouchable.
Should have taken more pictures and all. ='(
can all the moments just come back? huijing misses all of them. Really really misses all of them.

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Hmms. Sweetie showed me this blog. hmmms.
Tragic. Really tragic. It's about the girlfriend whose boyfriend died in army.
damn sad. I swear. freak. I cried shit load while reading it.
damn sad. So fucked up. so darn fucked up.

i dun think i'm supposed to do this but yah. But i really feel like sharing.

Many memories in my mind,
Some I laugh, Some I cry.
The times we shared, The laughs we had.
Realizing that's all I have to hold on too,
Only memories, Of what once was you.
Missing your laugh, I will never again hear.
That is the reality that fills me with so much fear.
No more smile on your face,
No more warmth of your embrace. . .I'll go on living for you
Knowing that you're always here.
Someday together we'll be,
But, until then, many people will take care of me.
So, keep on watching, it won't be long.
That from this world,
I'll be gone.
Into your loving arms once again.

Baby,remember i love you,
remember i cherish you,
remember i'm always here for you.
If you feel lonely come to my dreams,
i'll keep you accompany,i'll chase away your blues.
Go ahead, built our kingdom there,
the pet whale to remind you of our silly dreams.
I'll not stop you for doing all the things you like,
you can play your games 24/7,
you can go to camps you decide to join.
I know you'll be as outstanding as you were here.
I know you're soaring high up above in the sky.
I know you're wearing that smile you always greet me with.
I'll be with you when the time comes,when you're ready for me, come for me,
i'll be back in your loving arms.

I'll stay strong, and smile for you,
I'll make you proud as you have made me.

Baby,thank you for loving me so,
thank you for all the things you've taught me,
thank you for all the friends you gave me,
thank you for all the fond memories,
thank you for all the joy and laughter,
thank you for everything.
Baby,i'm on my own now,
and i know you'll always be watching over me.
I'm not afraid i'm not scared.I know it going to be tough but come what may.
For i know you're there blessing me, helping me through.
I promise you i'll think of you before i sleep, like you want me to.
You're never gone, you're always here in my heart.
I love you baby, always will.

Oh God. So fucked up right? So fucked up.
Kind of got me smacked right in the head.
Like what sweetie says. I am thankful that I get to see you each day.
Get to hug you whenever I want to. Or get to see that silly girn of yours.
that babyish side of yours. =DD or that manly side of yours.
I think i'm more than grateful. I really am.
='( omg. omg. =.= since we're dating soon. darn let's make more memories okays?
I promise I won be camera shy anymore. ='( omg. ='( i'm sobbing. o.O
omg. enough to get me through. till the next time i see you again. okays?
i got faith I really do. If she has faith she'd meet him again someday,
there's no reason for me not to. ='( omg. casue your still in this world.
He isn't. ='(( I can find you whenever I want. She cant. Fucked up.
If she can believe. I swear I have fuckin no right to give up without even trying. I can too.
Omg. damn sad. =.= I cnat stop crying now. =.= ='(( omg.

darn. her motivation of living is to die so. she's see him again.
fucked up. fucked up. omg. fucked up.
I can do it too man.
Omg please. please. If i ever lose faith again. Please please someone. anyone. keep me on the right track.
If I ever chicken out. Or grow weak again.
Please please just smack me and tell me whats right.
If i ever lose focus again. Or drift away. Please please someone.
Please please please. some one or anyone. scream it it man. who I truley love. and want to be with.
I dun wanna go about my life. doing stuff i'd regret just because. I cant take the pain.
He's the love of my life and I want him. I dun wanna lose him to pain. ='(( ='(( cause it's stupid.
someone help me okays? ='( ='( please? ='((

Please stop flowing. omg. I cant take it no more.

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Hahahahahhas. my lifesaver from emoing. LOLS.
HERSHEYS kissessss!!!! thanks mummyyy~~ muackkk!!! =DD

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Hahas. I thought through a lot a lot of things yesterday. =)
About my past relationship with him?
HAHA. the idnepedendacne dependance thingy. =.=
and a lot a lot more. =DD hahahas.

I would like to be taken care of. HAHA. i guess. who wouldn.
But if i cant be then, it's okays. =DD hahahahs. =)) seriously. huijing's more independant now.
So guesss she means it this time round. =D
and about loads of stuff. stuff that you will not realise when you are in it. =DD
Tsk it's always like that isn't it? HAHA. Thats why it is ew-ish. big time.
By the time you realise, it's long over. HAHA. guess when you're single. you have a clear head. =)
not affected by emotions. And you know what should be done. =)

ppl grow~ ppl learn~ =D I think I didn do a bad job being a gf.
But i think I could have done way better. =) way way better, =D
hahahhas. =) it's okay luhs. lols. I'd be better next time round. =D
I swear. I'd give it my all the next time round. =DD not for what? the 1st few months only?
But for as long as I can hold out. =DD i'd change for the better. =D
i won let my stupid emotions take control of me again. =) hahahas. =) really.

suddenly. within a night. she grew up. =) haha. =DD

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=D actually huijing can block out all the hurt. she faces.
like how i did 100 times b4. after each relationship. How i laughed immediately after that.
Didn cry at all. But i refuse to now. casue. it builds up man. it does.
and sooner or later you're not going t feel anything anymore. not even love.
and thats sad. seroiusly sad. I swear. Imangine what's it like? Youre life without love at all?
Tragic. you feel you're not human. emotionless and stone-cold.
Thats how murders are right?

But this time she chooses to feel. I wanna feel the pain.
Rather than feel nothing at all. Thats why she's facing it.
She wants to feel. No matter how much it kills her.

so much for not emoing. HAHA.

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what elseeee. hmmms. oh right!!! HAHA. happy part!!
omg omg omg. the feeling's coming back you know.

Like you see him, you can stupidly grin at yourself. Imangine hell lot of things. HAHA.
day dream. and all that crappy stuff. HAHAS. =D
can high whole day kind. HAHA. Fion knows what I mean. LOLS.
=.= HAHAHAS. damn funnie. I swear. hahahahs.

But hey. I like this feeling. I miss this feeling. =DD hahahas. =DD hees.
let it stay longer~~ =DD hahhahhas. =DD

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you're my bestie~ and always will be okays?
remember i'm here for you no matter what. =DD
promise. =)

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Okays. I know what I want~
serious. I'm choosing this path without any regrets.
Okay. I finally made up my mind. HAHA. =D

she likes to feel appreciated. =(( guess it kind of hurts not to be.
=.= cause. huijing really believed in you.
but guess as long as you're fine.
den i guess it's more than I can ask for. =DDD

She will keep her distance from guys too. =)

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yuppies!!! spend SOME time with my family!!! =DD
tee hee hee. =DDD hahahahhas. =DDD
went to watch batman~~

cools. it wasn as bad as i thought. =DD
hahahhas. =D lols. =DDD hees.

wells. thats all for today!! =)

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she loves her besties. =DD =DD
always and foreverr~~

define.FREEDOM

Omg. dreams was dope~ =DD
I wanna be a dope dancer one day.

=D one day. ONE day. lol.

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yesterday-leona lewis

This song is for you, Martin. sighs.
listen to the lyrics. everything's for you.

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

=') =') huijing's caught speechless.
Urgh. pain's killing me.

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independance is more attractive than dependance. =)
It's true. =)

Hahahahahahhas. =) she's happy today. =)
=DD wonder what fion and the rest are doing. hmmms.
miss you all~~ loves*

huijing's studying~~!!! see. =DD tsk =DD

hahahhaas. darn. camwhore~!!!! hahahhas. omg zhi high.

Den she got bored!! =) so she decided to draw. for everyone important in her life. =DD
=)) Joey, RB, Sc, Liang hao, martin, fion, may, amelia, yanti, Tiffy, Lav, Pearl =DD

=) I give you my heart ~~~ =DD

Drew a lot more. hahas. next time den post!!
gtg out with my family~~~ hahahas.
ciaos~

I love all of you. =DD

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yeahs~~ Whooo Hooo~~
















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JIA YOU EVERYONE~~~!!!!
make a GOOD show today!!!!
Huijing has faith~~!!!!
Huijing supports~!!!

We'd be supportinngg!!!!! =D

Go Rb, Go martin, Go jonas, Go harris, huzrul, Will. (er. hope I dun miss out any, darn~)
Go TPDE~~!!!!!

She was in her MBS lesson while doing this. oppsss. =DD hahahhahas. =DD bored luh. =D

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Tragic. I read your unposted post already. =.=
I cried too.

sighs. I pray every night that we'd meet again.

Will you wait for me?? ='((

define.FREEDOM

She loves:

RB, Joey, Sc, Lianghao, May, Fion, Yanti, Amelia, Tiffy, Pearl, Lavone

They make up her whole world. =)

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GOD. huijing has HUGE eyebagggggssss... @.@ @.@ @.@
=) she needs to sleep. =)) hees. =DD Zzz.
But she has presentation tml. X.X

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I think I'm over you. =DD yeahhh~~~ =D
Our friendship now is like awkard. But I dun really care. =)

Huijing's not looking back anymore. She has kind of offically moved on.
She kept the teddy bears today. =)) And the ring. And the bouquet of bears. =)
She changed her wallpaper. She stored away the pictures. And our songs.

I'm over you. =)

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Oh gosh. I swear. I am somehow. really really really want to see RB flip tml. HAHAHA.
Right. Dun ask me why okays? Cause huijing doesn know too.
But whenever he does that. huijing feels extremely proud of him. =DD
=) cause boy you're quite dope. Jia yous okays?
And dun rush into it~~ okays?

I know you can do it. Behind stage tml. whenever you feel nervous.
Remember I'm always supporting you. =))
Show me what you got. and dun let me down.
Huggie*

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Habits to gte rid of.

1. Stop being so open. =.= it's baddddd... really bad. even though it is to close friends =.=
2. Stop skipping school.
3. Stop saying vulgarites. Or crude stuff. (shit, damn) HAHA.

Dos:

1. Sweet, confident, strong.
2. Go back learning piano.
3. Go back doing vocals.
4. Sleep more
5. Do reggae. next time round. =D

she's gonna be pretty, sweet and smart. =) =) wait she already is. hahahahahas. =DD jkjk. =)

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Huijing has a job!!! hees. =DD
telemarketer. zzz. erm okays. pays good though.
cool yeah? just that I got hung up on by an ah peh.
grr. talk about pissing. lols.

well she could use the extra cash now. =)) hees.

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Right. Omg hung out with liang hao, joey and shing chun.
seemed like forever isn't it. =DD hahas.
we played like mad. got high over the slightest stuffs. =))
omg. it was fun all over again. =DD hahahhas.
and got emo over the slightest stuffs too.
I'm sorry. Guess i'm the cause of it.
Like every little thing reminds me of him. tragic.
omg. lets do this more often ok?? sit in school and HAHA. play. =D lols.

right. I saw flair nation at macs yest.

Luckman: Where's martin?
mel: oh break already.
the rest: huh??!! * shocked expression*

I swear. We walked in to find seats. Didn manage to find any.
At the time we left. Luckman's still wearing that shocked expression thingy.
sighs. really that unexpectted? sighs. =(
like ouch ouch. sighs.

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I'd be damn sweet to RB. =) hahaha. damn random I know. =)
Just feel like being nice to him. =)

right. no romance shows for huijing. =D she'd cryy.

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Huijing's gonna get real busy. =DDD HEES.
She's gonna work. she's gonna. URGH. continue her piano. Lol. And do reggae. LOLS.
And while she's at it. She wants to do ballroom dance, and continue her vocals too.
Not to mention TPDE. =.= but thank God. =D not that busy now for TPDE.
Lols. My way of standing up I guess,
I cant really depend on Rb forever can I? =DD
He's been a really sweet friend like. the most that I can ever ever ask for.
And I seriously love him for that. Seriously. And. even if I do like him. =D HAHA.
IF. IF. IF. it won be now. =D BIG IF.
now i just wanna enjoy. =D lols.

Humph. I give myself one year. HAHA. whatever huijing. =DD

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I'm gonna ask badd be my ballroom dancer. =DD HAHA. freaking weird I know.
HAHA. but hmms. why not? so huijing gotta start working so she can support herself.
=DDD hees. LOLS.

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whereas for martin. =( hmms. I love him. HAHA. i really do.
But looks like it's time to let go of him. cause. even though fion keeps putting it so nicely.
Like. he love you. you love him can already what.
It won get anywhere. Cause. Ultimately. we gotta spilt. there's no point in holding on.
to whatever that.. is never meant to be yours. hmmms.

I won forget the times we had silly baby boy. =D I really won't.
Even though I had move on. Already am moving on. i'm serious that.
You'd always have a speacial place in my heart. Always always always.
Confirm plus 100 percent one. HAHA. i swear.
Cause. I know that i'd never ever meet another guy like you.
And somehow. whenever. you feel like coming back. please do.
casue. i know. whenever it is. like 5 or 10 years later. part of me will still be with you.
casue. even though. we moved on. I know. you're still the one for me. I swear.
I might migrate over. I dunnoe. I'm seriously considering though. Cause. I'm that much in love with you.
And when I meant i wanna spend my whole life with you. maybe. I really mean it.
Only time will tell. =) whether. my feelings for you are really that strong.
But until then. we'd go our own ways. =) alright?
i really really hope by then, you'd still be avaliable for me. =D
cause. I'm pretty serious about this.

I hope you feel the same way too silly boy. I hope i'm that special to you too silly boy.
with that. like farewell. =') =')

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Right. and I gotta start picking my confidence up again. Esp in dance.
AGM was good. I swear. my confidence was there. =DD way up there.
be it for girls hiphop. bout it. or chain hang low. HAHAHA.
After AGM. I cui. HAHAHAHA. casue after that. incident after incident. Just keep happening
And there's no time to really recover. It just keeps coming.
So it's not huijing cui okays? HAHA. she just needs some time to recover. =D
i did it once I can do it again. =D

I'd be even better den I was in AGM. Technique wise. =D lols.

TRAIN HARD. i dun wanna lag behind. =.= lols.

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Junior piece got cancelled. hmmm.
I'm happy. finally got time to do my own stuff. like.
play with my friends. study. with my family. =DD hees
Looks like i can go for job interview tml toos. =DD

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after dreams. I'm gonna take a solid break from dance.
=) hees. =) it's throwing everything off blanace from my friends.
To my family. To my studies.

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sighs. I miss you. loads.
how does it feel? through realtionship after relationship.
and finally, you've found the one and only.
only to know that you can never be with that person?

Tell me.
How sucky is that?

I gotta let go of you too. I know it. Huijing's keeping the ring away today.
Wear it as a necklace. Sighs.

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Huijing wanna say she's damn proud of RB. i swear. HAHA.
Really damn proud of you. =DD

Jia you okays? I know you'd do well on that day.
dun let me down silly boy. =D

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I did not walk into carlton hotel in FBTs and shirt and not to mention slippers.
I did not. I did not break down and start sobbing as if someone died over there.
Okays. sighs. who am I kidding?

i'm breaking down almost everywhere I go. Sighs. It's damn tragic.

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Oh Godddd. Fuck. Pain. Someone help me.
I saw him dance to addicted yest. His expression and the amount of emtions.
It's just really enough to kill me. I swear.
I broke down. Like mad. Oh fuck. damn pain.
Cause. he send me this song b4. Told me. It reminded him of me.
fuck~ Oh God. Someone please take away the pain.

After that I didn even dare look up. I dun want him to see me cry.
Cause. darn he'd feel even more helpless. And soft heartened.

I can die seeing him like that I swear. But at the same time.
I really want him to get back his life like last time.
fuck fuck fuck~ urgh.
I rather had someone to kill me now. I so swear. I rather have physical pain den emotional.
CUT ONESELF* no luhs. sighs.

i'm proud of him. Proud of what he has become. proud of his achievements. I swear.
Think he's one of the most capable guys I ever know.
from his looks to his acdemic to his dance to his vocals. I am damn proud of him.
but at the same time. I dun want him to be too independant. Or the bad way. Friendless.
Or too work orrietntaed. damn sad. and too strong.

sighs. I dunnoe. I just wanna see him smile again. Omg. his smile.
thats what I miss the most abt him now. I swear.
That day we went out as a bunch. He smile a little. hees. I feel happy. I really did. HAHA. I swear.
But at the same time. I want him to balance out everything again. Sighs.
Like how he was. when i 1st met him.

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Addicted

Since u went away it's been one year two months
But it just dun seem like yesterday we were still together
Time has passed and things have changed so
Why do I feel this way
Cos you're with somebody else
And I'm with somebody else but
Whenever I think about the the love we had
It hurts so bad
Whenever I think about the love we made
I said that I'd be strong
Girl I really thought that I'd move on
But still I find myself asking

Do u still think of me like
I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos
I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl
I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else
I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but
I'm so addicted to u

It's been long enough don't know why I'm still holding on
If I had a wish babe I would turn back the hands of time
Cos u don't know what u got untill it's gone
It's the reason why I'm writing u this song
Girl I'm slippin and I don't know what to do
Girl I admit it, I'm sick over u
Damn I realised my mistake, my pride got in the way
I should have begged u to stay

Do u still think of me
like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u

If u ever lost someone u truely love
Let me hear u say yeah
And if u lost someone u truely need
Let me hear u say yeah

Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the sameI know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u

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hees. Buddy dun worry too much, Trust me okays?
Serious. you're gonna cherish it next time. Cause. You're gonna miss it hell lot.
A hell lot, I swear. HAHA. But it's making it this is that last time that is hard.
So you gotta be strong. make sure it really is the last time.

Why your friend probably say that is because he has it on a regular basis.
So. It doesn mean much to him anymore. oh like normal routine thing.
So when he actually got a Gf.
It's just something that comes along with it. rather than a bonus. =)

Thats the differance.

Heard b4. Absence makes the heart fonder. Works the same way for this.
So hey. no worries. okays? =D just be happy. =D
make sure it's the last time. =)

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Sometimes. I really wonder. what does God have in plan for me?
Why is he always screwing with my life?

Be it my family. Or my relationship. Or anything as a matter of fact.
Everything I do. Everything I put my heart and soul to. Everything I ever cared about.
Will always be so fucked up. One way or another.

When will it stop? When will it ever stop? Cause. Its killing me already.

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Hee hee. Omg. I miss all my friends. Seriously. Omg.
HAHA. =DD Even though it was like only mere half an hour?
But Omg. hahahhas. =D we rock luhs.

Yanti, May, Fion. HAHA. Amelia. went off 1st. =(
Sat on the swings at sunplaza park. and just talked. omg.
=DD HAHA. made my whole day. seriously. =DD



hee hee. and we went to a fish shop~~ OMG.
Got crabbieeee~~~ HAHAHAHS. damn cute crabbiee~~
HEES. omg damn cute. =DD hees.

plays with crabbie*
crabbie bites*
AHHHH~~~ cries*

I sound like him. dun't i? =(






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I really hope you're ok. from the bottom of my heart. I hope you're ok
Omg. sighs. I cant help worrying for you each time I think about you.
You stay strong ok? Anything i'm always here for you. always always always.

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I realise something, Your new hairstyle look like his today. =.=
I swear. HAHA. LOLS.

=D it's good seeing you. i bit weird I guess. But can live. HAHA.

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Today as I sat on the swing. I feel different. It suddenly hit me.
That. I really gotta stand up alone now.
No one's gonna be here for huijing anymore.
No one's gonna keep her company when she feels alone at night anymore.
No one at all.
I feel weird being single. I really do. Sighs.
I feel empty. But somehow. I'm enjoying the emptiness. =.=

dance was the happiest thing today. I really danced with my heart.
Let out al the pain. Hurt. And all the feelings I held back in me.

Vetting's tml. Gonna train. tonight. =D
hope dun screw up. i dun do well under preassure.

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priorites.

---Friends.
---Studies.
---Dance.
---Family.

hujing might be working soon too. =D just to kill extra time.

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lols. i have the freaking cheek to smile.
... oh wells. might as well be happy right?

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Hidden post~ To him.

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There's a million and one things I would have done differently.
There's so many things I wanna let you know.
And so much that I would love to say to you.

but looks like I'd never got the chance now~~
I'd return everything to you too soon silly.

stand up. stay strong. I got a lot of faith in you. I know you'd get damn far in life.
Damn damn far in life. I swear. I can see it in you. you're gonna top. beat the rest flat. seirously.
Cause you're a really really capable person.
You're frigging smart, You're starting to lead. Your dance is dope. DO NOT EVER SAY IT ISN'T. Rahim complimented you. He said TO DO HIM PROUD. tell me boy. How many ppl would rahim tell this to? He really believes in you. And that means something of your dance right?
Ask anyone around. They'd say the same.
Gurantee one. So never give up. I'd always always always. be here for you.
100 percent gurantee.

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And to RB. You stupid Bestie. HAHAHA.
Omg. damn. =) even though. it turned out like shit. HAHAHAHAS.
But from the bottom of my heart, I still really want you to be happy. =DD
Ok silly? So find the right girl soon. =DD I mean it. HAHA.
And always always stay happy. =) and remian your shy babyish self. ok?
Dun change. HAHA. seriously. LOL. If not you not cute anymore. HAHA.
Den won attract anymore girls. HAHA. HAHA. =DDD

Thanks for everything =D hees. I swear, I really still appreciate it. =D
For the tiny little stuffs that you do~ might not mean much to you.
But shucks it means a hell lot to me. Just want you to know that ya?
really really melted me. =D hahahas. you're so freaking sweet.

Anything i'm still here for you buddy. 24/7. =DD hees. always and always. =D

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lastly. Thanks to all my friends who have been there. to advice.
HAHA. gives all the random hugs and kisses.
Guide me back on the correct path. =DD HAHA.
I wouldn have been able to get through without you guys being here with me.

thanks. Fion. =DD
who sat by me. listening to me. And omg. crying with me. Omg. HAHA. i really damn touched by you. HAHA. =DD thanks girl. really. thanks a hell lot. ='DD

May.
HAHAHAHAS. even though you scold me. ='( HAHA. but I know you care a lot. HAHA. thanks so so much. for the soldings. HAHA. really kind of got through in the end. HAHA. =D i swear. got through in the end. hees. thanks girl.

Pearl
HAAH. damn you. HAHA. omg. Everytime I come down to find you. I see you and your bf being lovey dovey. HAHAHAHHAS. omg. damn ouch. HAHA. omg. but HAHA. thanks for the company. seriously. HAHA. I really would have died alone at home. On certain days. And =D you're always there for me. HAHA. so thanks~ I feel loads better.

Tiffyyy comes in peace.
LOLS. I swear. you nick like alien. HAHA. =DD hees. Thanks girl. For the random messages that you drop by. Asking if i'm okay. If i feel like dying. Constantly reminding me that. gosh i'm never alone. =D hees. HAHA. makes me feel damn loved. so thanks girl~~ I love you. =DD HAHA.

And Sc~~
OMG. hahas. stranger~ random stanger. HAHAHHAS. =D thanks for everything buddy. I swear. One of the only person that can make me really strong is you. Seeing your determination to get her, Is wow. makes me wonder. like. What i've gone through is really nth compared to you. And somehow. It gives me strength to continue loving him. Even now after we broke.

Hope she realises it soon boy. =)

And xinyi.
HAHA. why last right? casue you're the most important~~~ How freaking cheesy. HAHA. LOLS. sorry if i didn update you on a lot of stuffs. I know you'd probably kill me for that. HAHA. So i'm gonna avoid you. =p But you're the one I can count on, And damn I know that. Everytime stuffs happen to me. You'd call me back within an hour. And I want you to know that I really do appreciate it. =DD hell load of it. And babe. i'm always here for you too. ok? I love youuu. =DD

damn find a guyn soon. HAHA

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wow. that was long. HAHA. there's practice later. And i feel lazy.
LOLS. damn tired one okkayys? HAHA. =D
ciaos~~ =DD hees.

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ehhh. HAHA. stupid. I was walking home and it started to pour like mad. WTH.
Such luck. HAHA. i was like zombiee-ing way home. And omg.
HAHA. the rain totally woke me up. Damn. I cant sleep now. =/

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Right darling, i hope you're ok. =(( sighs. whatever it is. i'm always here for you ok?
silly guy. =) I know you'd be able to like. get in so.. ahh~~ jia yous.
Don get over headed. ok? train hard.

actually that goes for huijing too. lols. =D

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hmmms. I dun excatly know how i'm gonna feel later. but as of now.
I'm quite happy. guess can get on by.
=) as for this. HAHA. i really dunnoe what it's gonna be like. HAHA.
I really dun't. =/ shucks. =(

I'm not having high hopes. But i'm having a lot of faith. =/ does it work that way? lols.

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RIGHT. cleaning up steps is HELL. I swear. That one hour was the worst torture in my life.
LOLS. 1 hour for 1 bloody 8. =.= but the steps look really perfect after that. =)
So i guesssss. it's still worth it. =)

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=) I dunnoe if this decision I made today is the right one.
Or if i'm gonna regret it later. Or. I can actually carry it out.
HAHA. omg. but. =) i'd stick to it. since i've decided. =)
1 last shot. =) =)

I have a feeling i'd regret. HAHA. but ya. whatever. =)

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As for RB. darn. you know I love you luh huh? seriously dude. you just rock. =D
Nth more to ssay man.
AND GAH. =.= I'm sorry about yest. I really only want you to see you happy. I swear.
By all means I just only wanna see you happy.

I'm so like tempted to like do something for you each day just to see you smile. =)
cause. as a friend. HAHA. you're seriously seriously imprtant to me. =)

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shucks. my parents wanna talk to me tonight. I'm like starting to feel nervous already.
... I wonder what is it about. =.= nth really bad i hope.

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Huijing has to choose a path. sighs.
And it's ripping her into two.

nevertheless, she will come to her decision. soon enough.

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=D hees. OMG. i screwed up the chero today. sigh sigh. nvm nvm.
I will jia you. and get in. for a whole load of reasons. =DD

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To that special someone. Thanks for every every every thing.
I really didn know what I would have done if i hadnt met you. =D
You're so darn sweet luhhss. *drops dead* i'm damn touched by you.
so dun worry hon. you'd make an excellent boyfriend. =D
Ok? I have faith in that. so find the right girl soon boy. ;p



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I'd dance the pain away---

daddy and mummy decided to stay together.
Oh god you know how glad I was? Like, weight of my chest. 1st time i felt like that.
But now. from what i see. things are not getting any better.
I mean both of them are not really saving it. From what i see. they're just leaving it there. To rot.
They are fighting. Again and again. isn't really helping.
sighs. =(( even when darling went out with us. they refuse to make up. =.=

I think i act like i dun care. hoping not to care one day.
cause it's tiring to.

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... I found darling's apel portfolio at my place. =D
Darling didn lose his certs afterall. =DD
Tsk Tsk, silly darling.

on the contary, shit always happens to huijing. =((
yupss. I lost my original copy of certs. As in O levels and all. She is screwed. =(
Sighs. =(( nvm. =( later den say. sigh sigh.
Should learn to be more careful. Will learn to grow up. =((

*worried worried*

I skipped dance D= got test. D= wails~~
Missed out a lot i think. =(( sighs.
OMG. AND GOT VETTING ON TUES.
anyone not up to standard will be kicked out. WTH.

*worries* *dies*

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Rb was really sweet about everything. =DD HEE. I send him song.
He told me he'd put it somewhere and listen to it 24/7. melts~
next day he msg me good luck for test. =DDD
And he was waiting online for me at night. melt melt melt~~

=DD heeees. he really brightens up my day. seriously.
And i really really hope i'm able to do the same for you too. =D
I really really only want you to be happy.
andything i'm here for you alright? I promise with all my heart. Huggie~

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Tee hee. went out with darling yest. =DD HAHAHA.
=DD he joined daddy and mummy for movie. and dinner.
thanks honey. =DD baby had a wonderful time yest. =DD
Loves~ Hope you had a wonderful time too honey. huggie~

No pics. =.=

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hmm. like huijing has to stop living in DRC dayss. =DD
HAHA. but how to? when we meet up everyday. =DD
HEE. =D

great~ had stomach cramps today. Urghh. hahahhas. i was rolling on my bedroom floor luh.
pain like mad. urghhh. in school too. omg. nearly blacked out because of it.

=(( cramps is ew-ish. go away~~~ =(( =((

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=D hahahas. darling brought me out yest. =DD
we kinda fought again. my fault i guess. I had pms.
den extremely extremely super hard not to be cranky. omg. guys will so not udnerstand this one. =(( but i swear. it's really horribly hard.
=(( sorry darling. =(( we went to eat sushi and watched movie. =DD
muack. i'm sorry honey. baby really appreciates it. =D
love you~~ =DDD

hee. =.= went with Jon to study. =.= yes. study. ... HAHA.
eee. den he bring me out to smoke. .. as in he ask me tag along. =.= Jon is bad influence. LOL. jkjk. =DD HAHA. jkjk. =DDD
hee. den i asw RB at library. HAHA. he freaking cute one luhh. HAHA. =DD
Reminds me of that night after traning. he said bye to me. and accidentally bang into the pillar. HAHAHA. =DD

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Got some pictures. =DD
before concertss. =DD






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One day. of your undivided attention is all i need.
And i got it. =)) HEE. =)) dun worry. i won be too dependant on you again =)

I'm dying to dance.
=)) feel the beat.
and Groove to the music.

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Somehow. I never wanna see RB sad. I dun know why.
=)) but ya. hahahas. =)) heart will really melt. lols. =))
like a lot. =)) =DD hugs* take care okkk??


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HAHA. i found this on junwei's blog. and i found it freaking funny.
Rahim acting Mr bean. HAHA. cute luh~~






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hmmms. it's like what may and fion says.
Miss D.R.C. The work together and support each other and piah feeling.
Cause it's so busy. den suddenly nothing to do. den you feel the empitness.
Ask darling find more performances. =DD HAHA. i cant wait again.
Like keep it coming man~~ I need more of it. HAHA.

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I'm a dance addict.
Dance is my obession.
My life. Soul. And body.

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whoo hooooo~~~
CONERT IS DOPE. seriously. everyone's energy level is whooo~~
like job well done everyone. =DD =DD
job well done. =DDD =DDD i'm so proud of everyone.

D.R.C rocks to the max. congrats to lavone and peral who conqured their fear. =DD
hahahhas. they were sacred shit b4 the thing. esp pearl. =DD hahas.
but gosh you guys did great, didn you?? HAHA.

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HAHA. thanks everyone i would have really died without you guys.

Like harris. for your ankle gut. =DD hahahhas. lols.
thanks fior everything bro.
It really help a lot. seriously. thanks. huggies~ love you.

Rong Bing who constantly checks on me. asks me if i am ok. =D
and being there for me to make my day all better. =DD by comforting me.
making me laugh and smile. =DD hahahas.
praise me said i was Really great. wow. lovess!!
I think you're really dope yourself dear. =DDD

And pearl for constantly being there for me to watch out i didn cry out of stress.
comfort me and stay by me. practising with me. giving me a hand. telling me everything will be fine. =DD

And May, Fion and Amelia for being there when I was sceptical about loads of stuff.
The encouragement. The loves. Random hugs and kisses.

Jonas for encouraging me. make sure i'm more than fine.

and the faith that May and darling put in me. by placing me almost in the centre for quite a lot of songs.

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HAHA. =DDD Loves~~
RB is damn cute. =DD he wans to take picture with me alone. HAHA.
Den he gave the very shy face. =DD hees.
lols. freaking cute. =DD love you~

I cant wait~~ I cant wait for the next practise and performance.
true training's hell. but ya. hahahhahahas. =DD

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HAHA. costume. more pictures to be uploaded soon~~!!!!

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new friendships are fordged. =) dance can be a very political place.
let us. This batch. =) make a whole new difference. =)) LOVES~~~

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DAY 2. =DDD

Yeahhh~~ Our dope bboys. =DD



=DDD finish sessioning. =DD




Darling teaching me. tee hee. =DDD
Omg. look. my angle all wrong. =((

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I really wanna be in vibes. show my parents what i'm made of.
and that i'm not wasting my time at all. =D hahas. performing is an addiction. =D lols.
at the same time I won neglect my friends. I'd make the effort to keep in contact with them.

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Dancer place. Tcc yoo~~ =DD breaking locking popping hiphop. =D
performance coming out great. seriously. =DD
I think we're gonna really like surpass senior's expectations.
Right. =DD darling's leading. surprising ya? =D HAHA. opps. jkjk. =DD

yeahs! chill out with lavone b4 this. =DD KFC. =D

ew.. act cute. HAHA. jkjk. =DD

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Thanks to the loads who got me through yest. =DD it wasn easy. HAHA.
=DD but did it in the end. All of you guys. Thanks. =D =D
And thanks to lavone she gave me another kiss. hahas. despite me droping hers the other day.
sorry babe. =(( will be more careful next time. =DD

and. performance is on monday night. think about 6.40? =DD hahahas.
=DD

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Just random thoughts. but. huggie~~
xinyi shing chun and liang hao. love you guys loads. =DD muack!! HAHA. =DD

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wah~ huijing's gonna off her phone 12 everynight from now. casue she's deep shit tired.
HAHA. imagine. dance 5 or 6 hours. come home. talk to darling till 1.
den in order to live up to dear mummy and daddy expectations. study till 3 or 4.
den sleep. ohh wells. next day. wake up for school. and yes i am going school now. =DD
so ya. dies~~

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