Saturday, August 30, 2008
you set me free. 2:22 PM
Whenever I think about us.
Our future.
...
...
It gets so cold. So insecure.
Feels like. I'm steeping into my own grave.
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Friday, August 29, 2008
you set me free. 9:40 PM
Debts. Suck. ):
Zzz. Rawr. went shopping with joey today. (:
Bought more bikinis. Why again? HAHA.
someone tell me?
it's not like we go to the beach often or something. o.o
Follow your heart girl. (: Can never go wrong. (:
Casue if you dun. hmm. You'd regret.
bugis street is happening. Pretty nice stuff there.
Wish I had cash though. Irritating. ):
Class at nine tml. Zzz. Zzz.
Huijing needs sleep. She looks horribly shagged. ):
oh fuck there was this fat fuckin NS guy who sit next to me on the ay home.
No offence Sc. HAHA. jkjk. (:
it;s not the fat man.
Damn it luh. He stinks can? RAWR. damn gross luh.
And the worst thing. theres an empty seat in front.
&%^%#E$%%%^R^& WTH.
and he fell asleep. ANd he kept funkin leaning over and over and over. AND OVER
AHhhhHHHHhhhhhh~~!!!!!
Dang Luh. I was kissing the window pane. Wth luhs.
He stinks so damn much. ): RAWR. disgusting person.
Ewish. Fuck off.
Plans plans plansss~!!!! (:
Dance. (: Hee. Study for supps. ): Celebrationsss~!!! (: (: Dance chealt~!!! (:
I think I missed out a lot of stuff. HAHA.
Well dun care.
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'martin Seeking the Musicality in me sent 30/8/2008 1:23 AM:
jiji droppin by, i miss u too
'martin Seeking the Musicality in me sent 30/8/2008 1:23 AM:
=XX
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. heeeeeesss.
Off to bed.
Ciao. (:
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Thursday, August 28, 2008
you set me free. 9:04 PM
I got supp paperS to take. =.=
And becasue of that.
I cant dance again. Like really train. and improve.
Misses it loads. And loads. And loads.
but studies 1st. RAH. hate stuff like this. ):
I'm dying to dance. Ahhh~~
I wanna get into funkamania. ): heard they are sending a junior team.
O school.. 3 times every week after supps.
Dang~ serious? this one will be intensive training. o.O
I dun wanna lag behind. Everyone's improving.
.Gin. .Xuehui. .AnAn.
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I wanna be a dope dancer. I wanna do my parents proud.
At the same time. I wanna study be really good at it.
I wanna keep all my friends.
I want him.
I kind of want piano.
I kind of want ballroom dance.
Is it too muchh?? ):
Is growing up and wanting to attain ur dreams at the same time really that hardd?? ):
Just got to find the right equilibrium.
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oh.. and yes I do miss hell load of people.
Haven seen everyone in ages.
Joey. Sc. Liang Hao. May. Fion. Amelia. Yanti. Tiffy. Lavone. Nick. James.
Love you all loads. <3
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Sunday, August 24, 2008
you set me free. 10:07 PM
Ahh. I'm here to say.
I love joey. loads and loads and loads and loadss.
To bits~!!!!!! AHHHHH~~~~~~
*RUNS OVER TO HER*
HUGG**
hahahahhahahas. =)
yeahhhsss~!! =)
define.FREEDOM
Saturday, August 23, 2008
you set me free. 1:21 PM
Omg. thank you love compatibility thingyyyy.
Just made me dayyyy.. =DDDDDD
Capricorn and Virgo Love Match
When Capricorn Dates a Virgo
By TAROT.COM
If there's one thing Capricorns are it's hard-working. Capricorn always finish what they start and they always do the best job they can. Capricorn values honesty, quality and order. These traits will be very attractive to a Virgo, who is also responsible, dutiful and efficient. When a Capricorn and a Virgo team up, they can literally move mountains together. If Capricorn and Virgo decide they want a future together, they will draw up a plan, divide up tasks and work hard every step if the way until they're living happily ever after. There's no stopping the two of them.
How can I not be happy?
Some one tell meeee. LOLS.
Shucks. I am a virgo okayy?? I just need to grow up more.
in terms of confidence. and all.
b4 I become responsible and whatever not. And I am trying.
Can you wait for me to growwww?? HAHA.
VIRGO AND CAPRICORN
A harmonious pair. Capricorn's ambition and drive for success meshes well with Virgo's perfectionism and energy. Both are diligent, disciplined, and have a sense of purpose. They admire one another and take great pride in pleasing each other. Both need respect and approval (though neither will confess this), and each intuitively gives the other exactly that. Sexual compatibility becomes a mutual achievement; in love making, though, Capricorn usually takes the lead.
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Suddenly.. I matured a lot. Serious.
I know ppl are laughin. HAHA. but yah. I really did.
1st. I can handle my emotions better.
Includin. love. it won get so overwhleming and crazy like.
Oh-I-am- so-madly-in-love. anymore.
It doesn take control of my whole life anymore.
In fact nth does, not dance. not friends. not anything.
I'm just more emotionally secure. =)
2nd.
Dun laughh. HAHAHAS.
Today I was locked in my room. HAHAHAS
Cause the doorknob spoil. HAHAHHAAS.
When I finally got out. I talked to my dad.
He just sigh and shake his head. Den he said something like.
everythings spoiling.
Den it occured to me. My dioploma won't be enough.
Not that I wanna stop at dipolma.
but taking a degree is a must rather than a want.
i have to do well enough to support my family. =(
damn. sucks =(
That means giving up gg NY to dance. =(
That means if I dun do well enough. I cant go NY and find him. oh man. sucks. it means a lot of things. shucks.
I gotta grow up. even more.
hmmmsss. =) I went for a jog today. Packed my room today. =)
Study today. Went to watch movie with my family today. =)
I'm trying to set everything right again.
Not being the sturbborn me anymore.
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yeahss~!!!
bye bye pimpleess~!!!
=) it's finally recovering. =) hee
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you set me free. 12:55 AM
I drew my heart in the sky for him.
To let the whole world know.
I'm in love with you And only you.
Martin Shing Yuk Yu. =)
Friday, August 22, 2008
you set me free. 1:06 AM
Yeahhss~!!! finally the pics are out~!!!
RAWR~!!! There are so many pics?
*rewinds back to friday*
MY GOD~ LOOK AT THE FRIES~ exlpains the pimles doesn it?
HAHAHAHA.
Right. MAY WAS SUPER TAT GLAM. HAHAHAS
damn if only I had the videos. HAHAHAHS. =))
Eh~~ Huijing most glam lehhh~~ HAHAHAHAS.
=) We walked AND FINALLY. TA DAAAAAA~~~ =))
Naturally. We stopped and camwhored EVEN MORE~
(nic said I look like vamp sucking blood on this one) HAHA
(nic also said.. I look like a tragic girl from a tragic korean drama on this one)
HAHA.
Dang. HAHAHAS. it's all about bloody camwhoring.
We had like 147 pics? on nic's cam alone. LOLS. excluding fions
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I got an unexpecteed call~
From Bryant. He called all the way from army.
Shucks. damn sweet. <3 So sudden.
Apparently he's been trying to contact me since forever.
He ask me if I wanna go genting. He'd pay for all my expenses.
HAHAS. WTH. NO WAY MANS. hahahahas.
I'd try ask mummy. =) but. no promises.
You know right? mummy hates you. HAHA
Ahhh~~ you're as silly as ever dude. You have training at like 6am tml?
please sleep? =)
And yes. lets go out~~ okay?
I miss you damn lot.
Birthday~ movie and dinner. dun back out me dude~ =)
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008
you set me free. 10:39 PM
OMG OMG~!! AHHHH!!
SO SWEEET~!!!! I swear the guy's an angel.
I just read this book recromended by Fion.
Can someone get me a vampire bf for my birthday? PLEASE?
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Thank you Sc. =) <3 I know what to do already.
He never fails to understand. And he always cheers me up~!!! =D
Thnak you <3
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RAWR~~ yeahhhss~~ I'm going out to study with SC tml.
Den at night. Gonna study with Jon and Marcus~~ HAHAHAS
Sat going airport with Fion and. the rest. =))
Mug~ At least clear my this time subs. =))
Sun? Family dinner.
GAH~ As? Next round.
I'm gonna make a huge comeback.
But for now. clear subs 1st. =) dang. Wish I didn skip sch. LOLS.
Dance. French. Salsa. Reggae. Piano. Friends.
Enough to keep my time busy?
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People I cannot lose for nuts:
-Joey
-Sc
-Lianghao
-Hongyu
-Gary
-Jon
-Fion
-May
-Yanti
-Nick
-Amelia
-James
-JianLiang
-Vincent
-Pearl
-Lavone
-Tiffy
I miss RB. =(( were are you boyy?? =((
I love you all. <3 I'd do all it takes to keep you all. hugg*
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hmmmss. I think rahim and jean thinks i'm arrogant.
AHH~~ HAHA. I AM NOT. darn. I'm just damn quiet.
HAHAHAS. I dun wanna talk is not becasue.. HAHA.
I look down on ppl man. I'm just like that.
Ask anyone. HAHA. lols.
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I dunnoe what to say anymore.
Just.. go.. for now. leave me alone.
Someone pass me a memory eraser?
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Tuesday, August 19, 2008
you set me free. 3:14 PM
I'm at Joey's house now. HAHA. Studying. =)
Being all good girls and such. I swear.
her mum never fails to scare me. HAHA. Serious. Lol.
HAHA. I'm happy for you girl. really.. Huggss**
=) we shall double date next time ;p
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18/08/08 Monday
HAHAS. best friends indeed. look~~
We didn even plan what to wear or anything mans~
HAHA. =) damn. LOLS. =) We ermm.. walked around the whole day.
Had lunch at cartel. HAHA. yet again. =) LOLS.
And finally decided to watch movie. Love guru. Ew. Please do not watch it.
Kind of sucks. =( I like the company though. HAHA.
I even kept the ticket in my wallet. >.<
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Sc. hmms. kind of disappointed in you. really.
for me to say that? It is something. cause I dun usually get disappointed in friends.
you know it. hmmmss I dunnoe, I dunnoe what to say. =((
I can understand. I really really do. =) I do.
But it doesn mean that I'm not disappointed.
I was really looking forward to see you guys.
cause it has been awhile since we last hang out. =((
uhh.. sighhss. I'm not pissed and I never will blame you.
never never. Just disappointed. Darn. =(
P.s. I love you. =X
Please dun hurt me? ='(
Please let me be special enough for you.
Don make me leave. =( i dun wanna leave. =( please?
Hold me like how you did. On sat.
Stare into my eyes lovingly. Hold my hand gently~
With the music playing in the background~
when there was nth more than just our love.
God~~ Can I never wake up from this dream?
Please? Please?
Can anyone feel my pain? =( Can you?? ='(
Please be there to catch me.. Dun throw me aside~
Please dun make me leave~ ='( ='(
Someone stop those tears~ ='(
define.FREEDOM
Sunday, August 17, 2008
you set me free. 11:29 AM
today was a bloddy waste of time. =.= I swear.
damn retarded. Freaking retarded. I'm never doing this again.
Kevin called Fion who called me to go down to recital and support.
And I saw him. His attitude is... wth. But it reminds me.
That I am suppose to live without him.
That he is part of my life. But not IN my life.
Dance is my life. And joey. =)
And soo.. hmms. I left without saying bye. Or even looking at his popping thing.
I should say this. If you want me. Give me proper memories.
Cause I rather have.. Solid and meaningful and happy memories to look back on.
Basically i rather you be with me. create real real memories.
rather than this. cause we should treassure the time we have together.
Cause this is
true love. It comes once in a lifetime. I know when you look back next time.
You'd regret. You'd really regret.
Cause you won't have me anymore.
cause. i'd move on. And if I am the one. You'd wanna spend every second with me.
From right now. Cause I'm special like you said.
Basicallyy.. Its that simple. Either I am special enough for you.
To wanna spend this time meaningfully with me.
Or I'm not. No buts no excuses again. enough.
I can except your other excuses. This. No. I refuse to be understanding about this.
Cause it doesn make sense to me.
I gave you what you want. I attepmt to. cause I love you.
And If I am that special like you are to me.
If you really love me like how I love you. You'd want what I want.
Cause you want me to be happy. cause. It means more than anythign else to see me smile.
Thats how I feel thats how much I love you.
And if I am that special like how you claim. That you'd go miles for me. den..
prove it.
Cause. I dun want all talk. no action. like I said.
If not dun say stuff you dun mean.
cause nothing hurts more than this.
Thursday. 14/8/08
OMG. I met up with JOEYYYY~!!!
HOW LONG AHS IT BEEN GIRL??
HAHAHAS. I love you to bits.
You know no one can replace you righhttt? =))
You're forever my best friend. always always. HUGGS*
I loev you to bits girl. MUACK.
We talked abt our birthday celebration. It's gonna be freaking HUGE.
=)) HEES. =)) LOLS.
If.. ONLY IF. it's a success. HAHA.
Omg. I'm so excited.
Happy b'dae daddyyyy~!!! erm.. may all your wishes come true.
Hope you're having a good time with mummy at genting. =)
We had dinner~!!! den went home. cut cake.
Tsk. Like any normal celebration~!!!
At least they're trying to make it up to each other mans. =))
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Friday 15/8/08
HAHAHAS. =) met up with
Fion Nick May Yanti amelia and James. =)) HEES.
OMG OMG. hahahahas. its been sometime since I played till like that
HAHAHAS. =))
I love you guys. Thanks a lot. =))
Pictures will be up SOON. HAHAS
SOON. =))
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16/08/08
dance~!!! WEEt... HAHAHHAS. 1 and a half hours late.
HAHAHAHAHS. diess** LOLS.
Den head over to martin;s house. =))
HAHAHHAS. Had loads of fun doing nth. HAHAA.
Its the company I guess. =))
And music playing n the background. damn sweett. >.<
LOLS. *bubblegum flies out of martin's mouth*
HAHA. dude. You rock. One of a kind. HAHA. ;p
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Thursday, August 14, 2008
you set me free. 11:14 PM
I feel empty tonighhtt...Lost and helpless...But I dun feel like telling anyone abt it.Joey says it's unhealthy.
I prefer to see it as being strong. =))
I dun wanna need anyone.
Cause if you dun't. If you learn to depend on yourself.
And only you.
No one can hurt you.
define.FREEDOM
you set me free. 2:03 PM
Ha. =) brings back memories yeah? =)
Loves Tpde to maxxxxxxxx~~~!!!! =)
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daddy's birthday is coming. =/we're celebrating tonight.
Loads of mixed emotions are gg through me.
We're celebrating. But I feel forced.
I dun wanna go through it. At all.
Can someone just turn back timeee? ='(
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Tuesday, August 12, 2008
you set me free. 11:41 PM
In my whole life. If i were to ever regret something.
It's to even think about forgiving you. Be soft towards you.
Respect you. Treated you like my dad.
Cause you jolly well.. dun deserve it.
Your one job as a husband and a father.
Is to bring us out of harms way.
I am officailly. Bringing mummy out of this country when I have the capabilities to.
I stood up for her when you were bullying her and you threw stuffs at me.
I swear. I wanna make up for your wrong doings.
All the hurt that you caused her.
I wanna try to give her a life happier than what you have given her.
Cause I know she deserves much more than what she has now.
Shes pretty. smart. capable. And strong.
If you dun appreciate it.
I am praying someone else will come along and sweep her off her feet.
Cause she deserves more.
Huijing was cool and calm when she wrote this. =/Ya. it's pain on the inside andI feel more empty than ever now. But I wanna stay strong. If not how am I going to protect my mum?Thats why she refuses to call for help tonight. =/Thats why. For once. I got to do this on my own.Alone.
define.FREEDOM
you set me free. 12:13 PM
I haven read a book in like what? 4 years? HAHA.
But yest. This book. WOW. I read like.. 400 pages off it. =) HAHAS.
good book. Funny and interesting. =) HAHAS.
=) good book. love it. =) HAHAS. =))
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Life's greattt~!!! Getting on as usual. =) hahhahas. =)
Going out. playing. Feeling less and less empty as day goes by. =) HAHAS.
Got to get back my life~~!!!
Family's loads better. HAHAS. things are finally starting to smoothen out.
At least they dun fight as much. HAHAHHAS. =)
School's work's catching up. =)
dance~~ hmmmsss. lols. cui. didn pactise. sighhss. =(
Doesn mean I dun think of you alrights? silly. =)
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PLANSSSS:
Today: dance. sessionnn?? LOLS.
Wed: dinner with Xy
Thurs: study o.o YES STUDY. even huijing studies okay? (CMA retest)
Friday: dinner with G9 plus 1 HAHAHHAHAS. (daddy's b'daeeee~~!!!)
Sat: Dance, support~~ ermm.. suntec dance
Sun: familyyy dayyyyyy~~ support dance~!!!! LOLS.
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Ahhhhh~~ okkaaayyy. gtg late for my facial again~!! HAHAHAHS.
erm. its starts now. LOLS.
define.FREEDOM
Saturday, August 9, 2008
you set me free. 11:35 AM
I left I lost a father. But. HAHA. honestly? I dun care.
He's being an asshole as usual mans. Seriously. As usual.
I hope this keeps up. then I have the reason to move over to USA.
And stay with martin. o.O I rather be with.. the love of my life.
Den an assholic dad. =)
define.FREEDOM
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
you set me free. 11:20 PM
'martin Seeking the Musicality in me dancewithmartin.blogspot.com says:
i won't repeat this... but ya...
'martin Seeking the Musicality in me dancewithmartin.blogspot.com says:
i admit..
'martin Seeking the Musicality in me dancewithmartin.blogspot.com says:
i can't do without you.
'martin Seeking the Musicality in me dancewithmartin.blogspot.com says:
=X
>.< >.< >.< >.< I'm damn happy now. =) =DDDDDDDDDDDD
define.FREEDOM
Monday, August 4, 2008
you set me free. 4:12 PM
Ahhh~~ Jon's my daddy =))
I called him. woke him up from bed at 11. told him i'm troubled.
He immediately rushed down to school. =)) AHHH~~ he damn nice.
In like 25 mins? he was down from bed. =.= bathe. changed. and down.
Hear me rant about stuffs. advice me. HAHA. =))
Entertain me with magic tricks. HAHA. and some damn cute but funny games. =))
Thanks mans. Seriously. =)) I would have so died. without you.
And yes~ you totally made my day daddy~~ =))
I would like you to know that. I really appreciate it. Hell loads man. =)
Thanks~~
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Thanks Martin who stayed up to comfort me yest.
Despite having test today. Really helped a lot. =DD
HAHA. brought my whole spirits up~~ =) HAHA. I swear.
After sobbing my eyes out? And you comfortning me. I felt shit loads better. =DD
Thanks mans. I wouldn have survived the night without you. =)
Serious~~ =) hahas. Thanks. =DD
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It's a mask that hides my tears~
It's a fake smile I wear all the time. All the huge HAHAHAs.
All of it is fake. Deep down. I feel like fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck.
I dun wanna face my true emotions. Not now at least.
Cause. Darn. I'd fall damn hard. And. I have no one to count on now.
define.FREEDOM
you set me free. 11:21 AM
Huijing's priorities:
-Studies.
-Dance.
-Friends.
-Family.
=DDD. she gotta study real real real hard manss. o.O
exams are around the corner. and with me slacking around?
Doesn't really help much. o.O
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YEAHHSSS~~!!! =DD HAHAHAS.
Congrats to Urban Stance~!!! Revouge~!!! And Independant Crew~!!!
JIA YOUS okay??
HAHA. kill the rest of them. =)
=DD hees. =/
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Hi I'm Melody 
(nic also said.. I look like a tragic girl from a tragic korean drama on this one)
