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Hi I'm Melody
18 this year, coming 19. ((:
I'm a Virgo. ((:
I'm born on 4th September
And I wanna be a vet
Birthstone Sapphire. ((:
And morning glory.

speak.your.FREEDOM

I love to express myself. I love dancing.
I love singing. I love animals.
I love modeling. I love reading!
I love French people. I love the language Spanish
I love my piano. I love my 200 dollars racket.
I love my crazy family. I love my dearest friends.
I love him, Jesus. I love witting love poems.
I love the warmth in making people smile.
I love people who love me. HAHA.
I love people who are true to their hearts.

join.the.FREED

free one
free two
free three
free four
free five
free six
free seven
free eight
free nine
free ten

express.FREEDOM

three years of sad confinement
my life is finally falling into alignment
i run out of the cage to greet the sun
and to my new home i will run
fall to the soft grass and heck care to the world
this long awaited life will unfurl
close my eyes and smile so deeply
with the wind blowing so swiftly
a gentle feeling;
yet such twist
the scent of freedom
it does exist...

unfreed.PAST

March 2008
April 2008
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September 2008
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November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
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June 2009

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Lols. Gin's class was dope?
I dunnoe we did auditions and I got into lyrical.
Hmms. Was I really that sad??
HAHAHAHA.

I think I suck honestly. I suck at cherography.
I cant seem to remember anything.
I dunnoe what my brain is for. BOO. lousy brain.
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

Sigh.


Afterwards Serene Jas and I went to watch
Marley and me.
The dog died.
HAHAHAHS. We were all like crying buckets of tears.
Lols. But I enjoyed the movie. Thanks guys.

I relaise I'm gonna feel like this one day. Or worse.
If I were gonna be a vet.
Put animals down and stuff.

Den rushed down to esplanade. With nelson, haris, suria, fas.
(((: Heart to heart talk with the girls.
And we went home.



Oh bryant went for a leg operation yesterday.
And it was sucessful. ((: Thank God. I swear I was so darn worried for him.
I really was. I couldn't even eat much and stuff.
And he didn call me after the op like he promised.
ASS. YOU scared the shit out of me.
And he's like whining to me how painful it is and stuff. -.-



And to hongyu.
Please take care of yourself okay?
Come online and find me over there. ((:
And yes I'd miss you. Hell lot. Hell lot.
I wish you didn't have to go.


And a lot of people are going though a lot of stuff nowadays somehow?
And even though I can solve other people's problems easily and stuff.
I can't handle handle my own emotions well enough.
)): I dunnoe I'm no one to say this because. I'm somewhat going through a bit myself.
But I guess. Let's just all stay strong. And positive. ((:
And one day. We'd all be there. ((:

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LOLS. dope. yest was sessioning. ((:
With suria aty and serene. ((: HAHAHA. ((:
Freestyled a lot. Seriously a lot.
Fas overslpet. HAHA. LAZY ASS.
At smu. LOLS. Den we saw Frankie and Nelson at esplanade. LOLS.

((: headed down to gin's class saw. Eleanor and Sabrina. ((:
Dope curch cellmates. ((: shopped at plaza sing with serene.
Woots. ((: LOLS.

I love life like that. ((: HAHA.

((: HAHAS. dope mans.

Today went out with mummy do facial. ((:
And shopped with her and went cell group tonight.
((: Loves all my friends.

I miss sc lh and xy. <3

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I took name of the guy you'd marry..

Jonathon

This guy is cute but can be shy and his personality can be similar to yours in a way!.. Although make sure you don't fight too much!


laugh. xinyi. laugh, go ahead and laugh.

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I hate this.

HUIJING WANTS TO FUCKING DRINK.

I wanna feel happy.


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Hmms. I missed service.
Opps. HAHAHAHAS. ((:

After that I met Gen. ((:
HAHA. and we both headed our way down marina barrage.
HAHAHAS. for a picnic. ((: Wee. ((:

I met amazing friends yesterday. True. I'm still not as open.
But. ((: They're a great bunch of people. ((:

After that we wennntt to watch




which is a dope show. seriously. ((:
It provides all the insights and everything. ((:

I had fun. ((:

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I told you lianghao was really drunk. HAHAHAHAS. ((:

Xinyi. I miss you. Hangout soon okay?? HUGS**

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As I walked back from Gen's house today.
I felt okay. I felt happy.
I had a great time with her. Just freaking chatting.
For hours and hours and hours. ((:

I love her.

These few days.
I kept praying to God.
To show me the reason to let go. And make me want to let go.
Casue it's extremely hard if you're resisting it all the time.
And I feel better. A lot better.

I know to Non-Christain believers like Xy and Lh.
It'll be like whatever. HAHA. but yah. I dun care.
I feel tons better.

I wanna be who I am. Who I was before I fell so in love.

I just want me back.

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16th Feb.

HAHA. Met Sc, Xy and Lh.
AhhhhHHhhH. ((: We drank. Lols.
And watched underworld man. HAHAS.

We tried to make it a surprise but.. HAHAS. I guess it failed.
LOLS. I mean OI. Lh was super uncoperative. HAHA.
That ass. BOOO. ((:

I love them a lot. I hope Sc had fun. LOLS.
Happy birthday boy. ((: hugs** ((:



17th Feb.

LOLS. Xy's heres today~~

we're supposed to study. HAHAHAS.
but we ended up watching movie after movie after movie. LOLS.

HAHA. ((: we're dope people. LOLS.

I'd study tonight. I promise. LOLS

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yes. i decided to continue anyways. ((:
I hate being fickle minded. LOLS.
But guess there are like too many memories on this blog.

yest went shopping with xinyi.
HAHA. to get ALL her dman presents.
den I drank A COCKTAIL.
and I got drunk. HAHAHAS.

yes. just laugh. go ahead. I dun care. HAHA.
I litterlly blacked out as in I couldn see anything and my hearing was blur.
Ohh yes. Just laugh. BOO. HAHA.

((: I dunnoe. I'm still kind of with him. O.O
I guess. Its like. I love him but I dun wanna be tgt with him.
I wanna have my own life too. dace competitions. friends. etc. etc.

OH YAH. pernerment dating partners. ((:
yes. thats what it's called. lols. and I'm happy. ((:
I really am. ((: LOLS.

Best of both worlds. ((:

Tml sugarloaf and church. ((:

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Reunion dinner was a success.
Wee. HAHA. I caught up with my cousins. (:
Had fun playing and fooling around.
Updating each other and stuffs.

Honestly, I never though I would say this to my mum's side.
Thanks to the million of you guys who helped me through today.

I feel loved. ((: To aunts, uncles, cousins. everyone.
I'm sorry I broke down. But it's tiring to have to show you're strong all the time.
Thanks everyone. ((:

My cousin got scolded by my aunt ( not his mum ) and soon her husband joined in the nagging.
I mean I dunnoe. I think there's something wrong with him.
He's like 16 already. But he;s still throwing tantrums and breaking stuff in the house.
And my uncle isn't very rich. And it costs him a bomb to get the stuffs repaired.
And hey. I heard he recently just hurt his sister accidentally becasue he wanted to get hs gameboy Ds back. My aunt kept it to punish him.
he watches porn in school. and peep at girls in the toilet. -.-

Sighs.. I hope he grows up soon. To put everyone in misery, becasue of him?
It's just selfish. )): Sighs.


And to million and one people who have been there for me.

My parents. Mummy hugging me to sleep when I was drunk and crying non stop that night.
For coming home early. Brining tons of work home. So that you cna talk to me at home.
Daddy. For pampering me and asking if I'm really okay and stuff.
For taking time out. And taking long walks to never ending destinations with me.

To kor kor. Sc. Gary. Xavier. Jas. Gen. Thanks for giving me the courage.
To look what lies ahead To remind me. That there are loads of people who still love me.
And would be there for me. Who cherish me. And everything that I do for them.
Who never gets tired of me.

To Xy, Lh, Zhilin, Lav, Carmen, Raoul and in face a lot a lot more people. Aty. Fion. May. Yanti. Amelia. Kamil, Suria, Liting, Flo, Fas, Tiffy, Keiths, my bro, All my couz. Veron, QiuLing, Qiu Xia, James, Nick Tan.

Did I miss anyone out? I hope not.
Thank you. All of you. ALL of you.
All of you have seen me broke down at least once. And. Thanks for being there. Always.

I know I gave him my all. And thats that.
And I dunnoe. If I have anymore left to give.
I'd really be letting down all of you, all of you, if I have some more to give.
But I'm going according to my feelings.
Becasue, nth matters more to me than just following my heart. and yea its still with him.
I'd give Until a point where. I realise my heart isn with him anymore.
No matter how tired I am. I will.

And to you, I know you gave in your all too.
And I'd admit here. I haven been giving you the easiest time either.
I understand you.

Right now you're not my boyfriend. In fact, I dun wnat you to be.
I'm sick of commitment too.
You'r just some one I love. Someone I wanna be there for. ((:

I'd love myself one day. I promise all of you.
Riight noww. Just let me love him.



I love all of you. Thanks. <3


I'd be changing my blog add.
Only certain people wll be able to axcess.
Bye bloggie. ((:

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I realise. I have a lot of suitors.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Whatever.

I stayed up and studied last night. Omg right?
OMG right? HAHA. Not only sociology but accounting.
Yes damn accounting.

I'm so proud of myself. HAHA. ((:

Wee. I really had fun yest.
Doing nth. Just walking along the street. Talking. Chatting. ((:
Sorting out Fion's love dilema. HAHA. ((:
lols. feels like forever since we ALL met up.
Sugarloaf next friday. ((:

Ahh you guys promised okay? Come to dnace concert. <3
20th or 21st March. Ahhhh~~ Sc, Lh, Xy come too okayyy??

Love you girls lots.

Sociology test was easy. LOLS. And I saw Lh in the same Lt. ((:
Yeahhhsss~~ happy. ((:

Friends are just total loves no? ((:


Family dinner later. ((: Rawrr!!
I wanna go support bboy competitionnn. )):
BOO. take loads of videos for meee. ((((:

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I hate it. I hate mixed emotions.
I just came back from talking to Fion, May, Yanti, Amelia.
We talk about the times we all had and everything.

To this particular friend whom I somehow lost:

I dunnoe what the hell happened between us.
I seriously don't. I don't know how everyhing ended up this way.
Ended up so freaking ugly and everything.
All I remembered was.. you were always trying to help martin and me.
You gave your heart out to help us in the beggining.
And I wanted to repay you the favour by making you believe in people and love again.
I didn want you to walk out on the people who haven actually given up on you.
Who believe. And do tressure you. )): Who are willing to go through times with you.
Who wnated to believe tgt with you that the friendship would actually last.
I wasn't trying to prove that I'm right. That happy endings really do last.
Or. Anything to do with pride. I just wanted to help you believe again because you helped me dude.
Everything seemed to go wrong after that. )):
Sometimes. I really didn know why the hell you're ignoring me.. LOL. ((:


Through you laughed at us when we broke.
The countless number of times. We walked past each other without even saying a word.
I guess friends do not walk out on each other.
And one day. one day. When I'm ready. I'd talk to you again. ((:

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Urgh. He took it out on me.
Casue he overslept and couldn get a cab this morning and missed his test.
Wth right? -.- Sian-ed.




Rawr. Yest was a horribly sucky day. I swear it was.
He needed the notes and I left it in my previous class.
So then there was running around like a fucking mad cow trying to ask for help from people to open the damn door.
Finally one kind soul. Actually helped me. THANK YOU. omg.

And all fuckers I asked had excuses.
Sorry I'm too busy. I dun't have my keys with me now. etc. etc.
Assholes you know? Helping will kill you?

And my phone couldn call out. So I was waiting for his 2nd call.
Casue I missed the 1st one. But it didn come. -.-
Rawr. So I plodded home. Angry, pissed and feeling fucking shitty about everything.
And I called him. He was at the library doing project. -.-

Rawr. )): I took it out on him. I mean RAWR. )): Forget it.

Sighs. Den I stayed up at night, to accompany him till he finish his work which was bloody 6am.
Lols. I'm okay with it I guess. ((:



Lol. And hongyu came to my place. Lols. To study.
Becasue there were no powerpoints at the CC. ((:
We ate dinner, watched movies.
Shared about stuffs. Caught up. ((:

HAHA. den when I walked him out. We saw Mr Tan.
My God. Of all people right? Why him?
HAHA. Den he asked. "You guys tgt ah?"
HAHA. I burst out laughing. HAHA. Lols. ((:
It's damn retarded. ((:
I dun have SUCH bad taste. HAHA.

Wee. Tonight. Fion May Yanti Amelia. <3

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yay. I had a kick ass time with my friends yest.
woots. ((: HAHA. though at the end of the day.
I was too tired to say anything. But hahas.

Being around them just rocks.
Dirty jokes. Laughters. And more dirty jokes. HAHA.

We had pastamania. And went to shop for Michael's present. ((:

Lols. Den dear linag hao had to complete his project.
We ended squatting at some random place in the mall for a power point. ((:
HAHA. tons of people stared. HAHA. but it doesn raelly matter with them around. ((:

And the stupid coffee bean person lied.
After we bought our drinks. den we realised the power points there are not working.

Sucky people. BOO. Screw you all.

Love you guys. All of you. Lianghao, Sc, xinyi. ((:



HAHA. and to you. I still feel attached.
Just a less commitment kind of attached. -.-
lols. so is it good or bad? haha.
But I prefer things like that. ((:


Upcoming commitments:

-I might wanna take part in Ko night.
For experience sake. ((:
But I dunnoe if I should. hmms.

-SL. ((: (yays may's gonna put me in the dancing team)

-Gems concert

-I wanna go help out in SPCA. anyone? ((: lols

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You. Yes you, you ass.

Pleaseeee. Get a freaking life alright?
What's so happy about us ending?
So you can gloat about being right?
that happy things never last.
Are you that insecure?
just because you can't have it?
thats so loser-ish.

You need a friend? Den maybe you should consider why you dun't have one you loser.
Why everyone has one. And you dun't.
Why you're so disliked by ALMOST everyone who was once close to you.

Cause and Effect darling.
It's just cause and effect.

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yeahs. dope.


CNY pics xoon. ((:

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