Tuesday, May 12, 2009
you set me free. 11:12 AM
Yesterday..
((: God is dope. HAHA. I decided to head down to the beach within my 3 hour break.
I was sobbing my eyes out on bus 15. Yah. It refused to stop.
The pain was so unbearable. I thought I would die of over-cry or something. LOLS.
Tears were streaming down like over flooded rivers. It was really really bad.
I tried telling myself, I was in public, but my tear ducts remained defiant.
My eyes were BLACK. and PUFFY from the overnight crying. HAHA.
And when I was nearing Pasir Ris interchange, God decided to make it funny.
By playing "Just by laughs" on the bus TV?
In which my irritating tears stopped. ((: A smile emerged from my tear-streaked face.
And finally dumb laughters. ((: HAHA. cool right? ((:
Totally spoiled my beach-ing mood. LOL. But I'm glad he did.
Cause it was the only day dunnoe since when I couldn't snap out of my zomb-ish state.
Headed back to Tamp, finished up my book in Starbucks. Felt empty again.
Why does happily ever after seem so darn easy on a book? )):
Mine was just, Skip happily ever after, The End. -.- I hope I'm making sense. LOL.
And Lord, being Lord, did his miricle, My phone rang at that very instant. ((:
It was Colin~!!! *screams* ((: Shoot's on Thursday at 3pm. ((:
"Look elgantly sexy and wear a push up bra" HAHAHAHAS.
How to be upset? LOLS. ((:
Afterwards., Met up wth Serene and Jas outside cheers.
And Jas pointed at the darn bird and claaed out my name. FRIENDS INDEED. HAHA.
But I love them with all my heart can ever love. (("
True friend are really hard to come y, the ones that stick to you no mater what.
And I'm just glad they're mine. ((:
Night, proves to be emoish for Fion May and I. We just sat and talked and nearly cried.
And I could relate to whatever Fion was saying. And no,
I don't find it stupid nor dumb, or so freaking screwed up that she's still hurting at this point.
Den it dawned on me, how long am I actually gonna take to fully get over him?
Really cut out the two weeks crap taget cause, it's ridiculous.
Unless what Hongyu says, I'm gonna find another guy whom I can devote to.
Ugh. He can totally read my mind okay? He can tell me how I would handle this sitauation.
And it's more than accurate. -.- RAWR~~~ Dope. ((:
This point of my life, is the point where I feel, like I'm falling in love with 500 different guys.
But it isn't like that? ((: Just feels like it.
Cause of the comfort love and security they provide. And that's not love at all. I know.
I won't hurt anyone or lead anyone on in this process.
The pain I'm experiencing now.
Is probably retribution for what I did back in my sec school days.
Pfft. I'd never play with anyone's heart again. HAHA. that's for sure. ((:
((: I'm sorry for the really lengthy post.
It's just a way of releasing my pain. (:
I'd try to lighten up by tml. ((:
Den it won;t be so dark and gloomy here. HAHA. ((:
define.FREEDOM
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