Wednesday, April 15, 2009
you set me free. 11:53 PM
How does it feel like screwing up today? Huh?
- 21 bucks on cab cause you were late.
- Having low self confidence.
- And being all panicky AGAIN.
How does it feel like?
Saying oh shit I can't do it. 500 million times.
And giving the freaking face.
And have everyone staring at you.
And go what the hell is wrong with her.
How does it feel like?
Cause that's you right? You change.
For 4 days and drop back again.
Early for 4 days and 5th day. You drop back again.
And emotional control?
No more repeats of last night.
If not I'd just take my belt and hang you by the neck.
I so freaking swear.
Just grow up already, girl.
Just freaking grow up okay?
I'm suffering from inferiority complex these days.
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.
Come back huijing.
Don't be stupid anymore.
So met Serene. And yes I was late.
And thus 15 bucks gone. Cabbing.
Taken was a good show.
Really should go and watch. ((:
Sessioning was fun? ((:
I learn a lot.
Both practical and theory. ((:
Just by sitting there listening and all.
Can't say much about letting go.
Cause I expected myself to freeze and be unable to do anything.
But I didn't. So fine.
But I do know what to work on already.
I can't thank you guys enough.
Cause I had fun. ((:
Thanks. ((:
And I'm sorry for squealing a million times.
I's just keep quiet next time.
Cause I really do have really high expectations of myself.
But yet I know I'm so far away.
In everything. Character and all.
Go me. Don't give up.
I'm okay. Just pissed with myself.
And Serene and Gen. I love you. Tuck loads.
Thanks for today.
define.FREEDOM