Friday, March 27, 2009
you set me free. 11:50 PM
Lols. I knew Joey was gonna shoot me.
Damn badly. ((:
But I know she has a reason to.
HAHA. I won feel the pinch if she does it nicely.
And she knows. LOLS.
Ahhh. I was upset.
But I didn let it run all over my face. ((:
Yeahs. ((: ((:
And yah. I'm gonna bounce. PROPERLY.
Like 1/2 hour before I sleep or something every night.
And I'd try to go early and correct my aliment tml.
I think I'm blind cause. I cant see the difference.
I SWEAR. I AM BLIND. LOL.
But I'd learn how to see? I have to no? LOL.
Love. I haven't touched on that. In awhile.
I foresee. I'm gonna have problem falling in love again.
I'm damn afraid of commitment now.
Yah. 1st time. I know.
Yah. and gen's right. I guess. I cant really forgive myself yet.
For letting myself fall into this state.
I realise. I don't miss or love anyone now.
But myself. The strong, quiet, caring and happy me back.
The time when martin was found in my room?
We weren't doing anything. We were just talking?
And my dad slapped me.
And I didn't cry at all?
Yah. Those times. Those steel times. ((: LOLS.
I miss myself. I really want myself back now.
And I realise. I don't need thousands of friends now.
Just main groups of people. ((:
The attention I require to feel loved is like significantly lesser.
Lols. ((: I kind of solve my own problems now.
With help of God. Of course.
That shows what? I've recovered no? ((:
And stuff. ((: It's like re-growing up all over again. ((:
-.- And no. When I get myself back. I won't ever lose it again.
For anyone.
That's what I learnt. ((:
Thanks to all. Who walked me through this far. ((:
I'd never made it without any of you guys. ((:
LOLS. RB. JUST FLIP THE GIRL LUH.
You can do it one. ((:
define.FREEDOM