you set me free. 12:22 PM
on anyone except yourself, no?
I'm gonna take a break for awhile. From everything.
Shit always screws up. All at once.
Right. I just argued with mummy too.
What more?
I had a rule. I keep my problems to myself.
I think I should do that again.
I always fuck things up when shit happens esp when it involves people.
I don't wanna destory my relationships with people.
I don't really trust anyone with my problems.
Cause I'd always fuck it up.
Some old BBQ pics.
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Monday, January 19, 2009
you set me free. 8:56 PM
Wow. That's just really mature.
Don't you think?
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you set me free. 5:52 PM
I have 4 project submissions and 3 presenatations this week.
Plus a test on friday. -.- I know. I feel like dying.
I don't feel sucky. I just feel stressed.
It isn't a down period of my life.
Sometimes, it feels real difficult. Esp when you're already dead tired.
and you got like tons to go. ((: I'm sure everyone has those days.
Consequence. Heavy eye bags. )):
I got a story book too. Time to brush up on my english.
It's getting worse and worse. I can't stand it anymore. Got to do something about it.
I can't even spell the simplest words. HAHA. ((:
I feel much clearer with an aim in life.
I know I'm gonna end up with a vet degree.
While being a real good dancer.
And being with baby when I grow up.
I feel really balanced these days.
I am hanging out with everyone I am supposed to.
I'm doing my work. Catching up.
I'm having fun too. I'm doing dance too.
My dad seems pleased. ((:
I know it's kind of monotone here these days.
I'd do something about it. ((:
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Sunday, January 18, 2009
you set me free. 10:42 AM
Expectations suck.
It creates problems.
It creates arguements.
It creates pain.
Huijing. You gottta rid of them.
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Saturday, January 17, 2009
you set me free. 12:07 AM
((: hiiiii~~~ ((:
Meeting up with may and fion makes me happy. ((:
Maybe we shouldn think of what we would be like when we graduate.
But treasure the times that we have together. ((:
((: I will do better.
Jasmine jasmine. I miss you too girl.
And To hongyu.
I am so sorry. This guy has been calling me out since tues.
And I keep turning it down cause of projects and all.
I AM SORRY. )): I will make time.
AIYO. dun't think so much. alright?
I'd be here for you. In fact I am here for you. ((:
SILLY. ((: Just follow your heart. ((:
And to you. ((:
You do not suck dear. If they could see how much you care.
I am extermely sure they'd say the same that I just did. ((:
No one's perfect. (( So dun;t take it to heart.
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Wednesday, January 14, 2009
you set me free. 4:26 PM
I dun't know. There are times..
I think I make a lousy daughter.
And this is one of those times.
I suck as a daugther and that's it.
I'm gonna disappoint them again.
It's not I dun't love them or anything.
It's not like I won't cry a lot. Leaving them.
Making this decision. It kills me too.
It really does.
But it's something I really wanna do I guess.
I have never been so sure in my life.
It's for me.
Cause if I switch courses.
The ultimate path would lead me overseas.
I wanna die. I dun't even know where to start.
how to start. I dun want them to cry.
Cause I know mummy will.
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Tuesday, January 13, 2009
you set me free. 9:50 AM
((: silly liang hao. ((:
Dun get upset. ((: I love you. ((:
I always find your advice really helpful. ((:
((: silly silly. ((:
yesterday. was 20th month with baby. ((:
yesterday. was heaven.
yesterday. was one of the best anniversaries ever.
though it was just his house.
but. it was really sweet.
It feels like we're back at the beggining when everything just started.
In fact these few days, felt like that.
((: I couldn ask more from you baby.
Thank you. ((:
I'm really happy with you. ((:
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Monday, January 12, 2009
you set me free. 9:17 AM
Den blindfloded him and
"Ta da"
((:
(((: I got home and got slaugthered by my parents. -.-
ah wells. nvm I guess.
But I'm gonna be a good girl and study today.
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I told my parents about switching course already.
and they were extremely cool about it.
EXTREMELY. they didn even scold me or anything.
((: ah wells. ((:
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Thursday, January 8, 2009
you set me free. 1:23 PM
Although facing the fact that you're leaving.
Really does make me wanna shrivel up and die.
But I'd never regret loving you.
You'd always be my one and only.
Hope it's the same for you too baby.
My curfew is beating me up.
I feel like a no lifer. Introvet shit. With no friends.
I hate my *ucking curfew.
One day I'm just gonna break it. Screw what they say. I dun care anymore.
I'd rather break their ridiculous rules than lose who I am.
I got 2As and 2Bs for mid-sem.
Hmm. Okay luh. I also dunnoe what to say.
I just wanna score well. At least before I switch course.
I wanna prove to my teachers I'm not a total slob.
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Tuesday, January 6, 2009
you set me free. 7:15 PM
My group is dope.
We finished the entire project in 2 hours.
Muhahahahhaas.
We're smart people. ((: Wee.
Okay. I am only gonna post 1 pic.
I'd chase Aileen for it. ((:
I koped it out of lianghao's blog. ((((((((((((((((((((:
Yah I love my class. (((:
Ah. I shall just not thnk about it for now.
Saves me all the trouble. ((:
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Monday, January 5, 2009
you set me free. 12:00 PM
Hiya people.
I wanna switch course.
I know. To say that not is damn moronic because. I left a year before I graduate.
But I feel I'm forced to do something which I really hate everyday.
All my 3 years in poly are about balance sheets and more p&ls.
Well almost all.
I like money. Duh. who doesn't?
But not till the extent of studying it.
I should have thought of that 3 years earlier no?
I know. )): And my cert's really ugly now. And I dun't wnana graduate like that.
I dunnoe. There's another problem.
I screwed up my english paper. So my R4 isn't excatly fantastic.
Not fantastic enough to get into the course I want to anyway.
That means I gotta repeat? My english?
And when will that be? next year?
So I can enroll in? 2010. O.O
I shouldn be writting this here. The less people see it.
The better. This is my screw up.
)): And it's so big. That. I dun't know how to fix it.
Liting and I share the same thingy.
I'd rather do something I love. Get a job as a dancer.
And money comes in secondary. But that's not very practical, is it?
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Saturday, January 3, 2009
you set me free. 1:15 PM
Right. I figured I missed out one dman important part.
New year resolutions~!! HAHA.
A bit lag I know.
1. Studies. (pay more attention to it)
2. Dance well.
3. Expand my social circle.
4. Get through migration with baby. ((:
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Friday, January 2, 2009
you set me free. 11:16 PM
Tell me.
How do I not love all my friends?
You tell me. ((:
Sc talked to me about martin's and my problem.
The migration problem. I didn even approach him. And he came up to me.
He assured me. Gave me sound advice.
Though I felt really insecure there. He kept asking if I were okay.
Get home safe. And he's worried.
Hongyu came to talk to me when he felt I was upset and lonely.
He even followed me up to the beach to check if I were alright.
Though he was pissed I pang sehed him that day.
And xinyi for ALL the hugs you gave me today.
It was really a lot. Half cause she was really high from all the drinks. But yah.
I feel damn loved by all of it. ((:
And liang hao. Just for being him.
He's not excatly the expressive kind.
But when he cares it's subtle. But.. I dunnoe. ((:
He just wouldn admit he does. ((:
And I love him for that. It;s just a liang hao thing. ((:
Jasmine is always there too. No matter what.
How much I cry. I can always depend on her.
That I know. ((: And I am really grateful though.
I never really did express.
And fion.
She will always be my 1st friend in tp.
She always stood up for me when I was upset or crying or angry.
And that I dunnoe I really appreciate it.
I know who is worth keeping as a friend.
There are very few I consider up there friends.
But when I do. It's really permernent. ((:
And there're really one of my top priorities. ((:
I love each and every one of them. ((:
And even though I dun express it that well.
Or I dun talk to them extremely often.
But there's always a place for them in my heart. ((:
I love you all.
Thanks for always being with me. ((:
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Thursday, January 1, 2009
you set me free. 9:58 PM
hiya people. ((:
Wee.
I got muscle stretch while I was in Hong Kong.
Casue I wore high heels to disneyland.
HAHA. talk about dumb.
And I got little rashes on my face.
Cause I did too many masks over there.
HAHAHAHA. yah. go ahead. laugh at me. I dun care. HAHA.
Pictures. ((:
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you set me free. 12:32 PM
hiya all. I'm back. ((:
Somehow I dun feel like doing anything.
I'm sorry penguin. I'd get it done soon.
I'm sorry. To tons of people whom I've chucked aside these few days.
I'm sorry. )): I'd blog about HK another day.
I cried three times today.
My mood's being really unstable and all.
Some new year day. )):
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