Sunday, July 20, 2008
you set me free. 2:40 PM
Oh Godddd. Fuck. Pain. Someone help me.
I saw him dance to addicted yest. His expression and the amount of emtions.
It's just really enough to kill me. I swear.
I broke down. Like mad. Oh fuck. damn pain.
Cause. he send me this song b4. Told me. It reminded him of me.
fuck~ Oh God. Someone please take away the pain.
After that I didn even dare look up. I dun want him to see me cry.
Cause. darn he'd feel even more helpless. And soft heartened.
I can die seeing him like that I swear. But at the same time.
I really want him to get back his life like last time.
fuck fuck fuck~ urgh.
I rather had someone to kill me now. I so swear. I rather have physical pain den emotional.
CUT ONESELF* no luhs. sighs.
i'm proud of him. Proud of what he has become. proud of his achievements. I swear.
Think he's one of the most capable guys I ever know.
from his looks to his acdemic to his dance to his vocals. I am damn proud of him.
but at the same time. I dun want him to be too independant. Or the bad way. Friendless.
Or too work orrietntaed. damn sad. and too strong.
sighs. I dunnoe. I just wanna see him smile again. Omg. his smile.
thats what I miss the most abt him now. I swear.
That day we went out as a bunch. He smile a little. hees. I feel happy. I really did. HAHA. I swear.
But at the same time. I want him to balance out everything again. Sighs.
Like how he was. when i 1st met him.
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Addicted
Since u went away it's been one year two months
But it just dun seem like yesterday we were still together
Time has passed and things have changed so
Why do I feel this way
Cos you're with somebody else
And I'm with somebody else but
Whenever I think about the the love we had
It hurts so bad
Whenever I think about the love we made
I said that I'd be strong
Girl I really thought that I'd move on
But still I find myself asking
Do u still think of me like
I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos
I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl
I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else
I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but
I'm so addicted to u
It's been long enough don't know why I'm still holding on
If I had a wish babe I would turn back the hands of time
Cos u don't know what u got untill it's gone
It's the reason why I'm writing u this song
Girl I'm slippin and I don't know what to do
Girl I admit it, I'm sick over u
Damn I realised my mistake, my pride got in the way
I should have begged u to stay
Do u still think of me
like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u
If u ever lost someone u truely love
Let me hear u say yeah
And if u lost someone u truely need
Let me hear u say yeah
Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the sameI know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u
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hees. Buddy dun worry too much, Trust me okays?
Serious. you're gonna cherish it next time. Cause. You're gonna miss it hell lot.
A hell lot, I swear. HAHA. But it's making it this is that last time that is hard.
So you gotta be strong. make sure it really is the last time.
Why your friend probably say that is because he has it on a regular basis.
So. It doesn mean much to him anymore. oh like normal routine thing.
So when he actually got a Gf.
It's just something that comes along with it. rather than a bonus. =)
Thats the differance.
Heard b4. Absence makes the heart fonder. Works the same way for this.
So hey. no worries. okays? =D just be happy. =D
make sure it's the last time. =)
define.FREEDOM
Hi I'm Melody 