# the . f r e e d o m . WE LIVE in

Sunday, July 27, 2008

you set me free. 12:18 PM

Hmms. Sweetie showed me this blog. hmmms.
Tragic. Really tragic. It's about the girlfriend whose boyfriend died in army.
damn sad. I swear. freak. I cried shit load while reading it.
damn sad. So fucked up. so darn fucked up.

i dun think i'm supposed to do this but yah. But i really feel like sharing.

Many memories in my mind,
Some I laugh, Some I cry.
The times we shared, The laughs we had.
Realizing that's all I have to hold on too,
Only memories, Of what once was you.
Missing your laugh, I will never again hear.
That is the reality that fills me with so much fear.
No more smile on your face,
No more warmth of your embrace. . .I'll go on living for you
Knowing that you're always here.
Someday together we'll be,
But, until then, many people will take care of me.
So, keep on watching, it won't be long.
That from this world,
I'll be gone.
Into your loving arms once again.

Baby,remember i love you,
remember i cherish you,
remember i'm always here for you.
If you feel lonely come to my dreams,
i'll keep you accompany,i'll chase away your blues.
Go ahead, built our kingdom there,
the pet whale to remind you of our silly dreams.
I'll not stop you for doing all the things you like,
you can play your games 24/7,
you can go to camps you decide to join.
I know you'll be as outstanding as you were here.
I know you're soaring high up above in the sky.
I know you're wearing that smile you always greet me with.
I'll be with you when the time comes,when you're ready for me, come for me,
i'll be back in your loving arms.

I'll stay strong, and smile for you,
I'll make you proud as you have made me.

Baby,thank you for loving me so,
thank you for all the things you've taught me,
thank you for all the friends you gave me,
thank you for all the fond memories,
thank you for all the joy and laughter,
thank you for everything.
Baby,i'm on my own now,
and i know you'll always be watching over me.
I'm not afraid i'm not scared.I know it going to be tough but come what may.
For i know you're there blessing me, helping me through.
I promise you i'll think of you before i sleep, like you want me to.
You're never gone, you're always here in my heart.
I love you baby, always will.

Oh God. So fucked up right? So fucked up.
Kind of got me smacked right in the head.
Like what sweetie says. I am thankful that I get to see you each day.
Get to hug you whenever I want to. Or get to see that silly girn of yours.
that babyish side of yours. =DD or that manly side of yours.
I think i'm more than grateful. I really am.
='( omg. omg. =.= since we're dating soon. darn let's make more memories okays?
I promise I won be camera shy anymore. ='( omg. ='( i'm sobbing. o.O
omg. enough to get me through. till the next time i see you again. okays?
i got faith I really do. If she has faith she'd meet him again someday,
there's no reason for me not to. ='( omg. casue your still in this world.
He isn't. ='(( I can find you whenever I want. She cant. Fucked up.
If she can believe. I swear I have fuckin no right to give up without even trying. I can too.
Omg. damn sad. =.= I cnat stop crying now. =.= ='(( omg.

darn. her motivation of living is to die so. she's see him again.
fucked up. fucked up. omg. fucked up.
I can do it too man.
Omg please. please. If i ever lose faith again. Please please someone. anyone. keep me on the right track.
If I ever chicken out. Or grow weak again.
Please please just smack me and tell me whats right.
If i ever lose focus again. Or drift away. Please please someone.
Please please please. some one or anyone. scream it it man. who I truley love. and want to be with.
I dun wanna go about my life. doing stuff i'd regret just because. I cant take the pain.
He's the love of my life and I want him. I dun wanna lose him to pain. ='(( ='(( cause it's stupid.
someone help me okays? ='( ='( please? ='((

Please stop flowing. omg. I cant take it no more.

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Hahahahahhas. my lifesaver from emoing. LOLS.
HERSHEYS kissessss!!!! thanks mummyyy~~ muackkk!!! =DD

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Hahas. I thought through a lot a lot of things yesterday. =)
About my past relationship with him?
HAHA. the idnepedendacne dependance thingy. =.=
and a lot a lot more. =DD hahahas.

I would like to be taken care of. HAHA. i guess. who wouldn.
But if i cant be then, it's okays. =DD hahahahs. =)) seriously. huijing's more independant now.
So guesss she means it this time round. =D
and about loads of stuff. stuff that you will not realise when you are in it. =DD
Tsk it's always like that isn't it? HAHA. Thats why it is ew-ish. big time.
By the time you realise, it's long over. HAHA. guess when you're single. you have a clear head. =)
not affected by emotions. And you know what should be done. =)

ppl grow~ ppl learn~ =D I think I didn do a bad job being a gf.
But i think I could have done way better. =) way way better, =D
hahahhas. =) it's okay luhs. lols. I'd be better next time round. =D
I swear. I'd give it my all the next time round. =DD not for what? the 1st few months only?
But for as long as I can hold out. =DD i'd change for the better. =D
i won let my stupid emotions take control of me again. =) hahahas. =) really.

suddenly. within a night. she grew up. =) haha. =DD

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=D actually huijing can block out all the hurt. she faces.
like how i did 100 times b4. after each relationship. How i laughed immediately after that.
Didn cry at all. But i refuse to now. casue. it builds up man. it does.
and sooner or later you're not going t feel anything anymore. not even love.
and thats sad. seroiusly sad. I swear. Imangine what's it like? Youre life without love at all?
Tragic. you feel you're not human. emotionless and stone-cold.
Thats how murders are right?

But this time she chooses to feel. I wanna feel the pain.
Rather than feel nothing at all. Thats why she's facing it.
She wants to feel. No matter how much it kills her.

so much for not emoing. HAHA.

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what elseeee. hmmms. oh right!!! HAHA. happy part!!
omg omg omg. the feeling's coming back you know.

Like you see him, you can stupidly grin at yourself. Imangine hell lot of things. HAHA.
day dream. and all that crappy stuff. HAHAS. =D
can high whole day kind. HAHA. Fion knows what I mean. LOLS.
=.= HAHAHAS. damn funnie. I swear. hahahahs.

But hey. I like this feeling. I miss this feeling. =DD hahahas. =DD hees.
let it stay longer~~ =DD hahhahhas. =DD

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you're my bestie~ and always will be okays?
remember i'm here for you no matter what. =DD
promise. =)

define.FREEDOM