Sunday, June 22, 2008
you set me free. 8:01 PM
urgh. i'm left alone. oh wells. i cup him. cause i was caught up in my emotions.
I'm sorry honeyy. but..
call him back he won pick up. bur ahh~~ i'm fine.
i'm just gonna need a few days. I'm sorry all. =( it's not self pitying.
it's sorting out your thoughts. =((
i'm feeling extremely down that's all. =((
i'm closer to her now. cause i've been home a lot.
mummy talked to me. about a lot of stuff. which made me real heartbroken.
I think she's come up with her decision. think. T-H-I-N-K.
it's about her relationship with daddy. stuff like this. i'm not supposed to know.
I dun freaking wanna know. get it? no no. I wanna know. but i cant be strong enough.
I wanna be there for you. but at the same time. when i hear these stuff.
I cant help but hide in the bathroom and cry. get it?
and you shithead. you have a home. 2 kids. a lovely wife. what the *uck is wrong with you?
why why are you so bloody selfish? huh? we mean so little to you?
You know. Whenever i see you. I just feel like freaking punching you in the head?
It's be cause you're my dad. URGHHH. *punches wall*
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. This whole family is falling apart becasue of you.
you happy now? huh? got all of us where you wanted right? I HATE YOU TO THE CORE.
yea. i held it back for long enough man. I HATE YOU.
It's you that dun't deserve mummy. not the other way round.
dun you even dare to try push the blame to her. haven't you cause her enough pain?
I hate you for being horribly selfish. horribly insensitive. and horribly irresponisble.
I hate you. So fucking much.
URGHHH. I cant express my anger by hitting you. I can only express it in words so there.
I seriously fuckingly horribly shitty dun want to have anything to do with you again.
If you are so going to mistreat her even one time.
I am personally gonna bring her and wenlin and walk out on you shithead.
and you blody hell freaking know I mena whatever i say.
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right. sighs. to shing chun liang hao and xinyi and darling. hey. dun;t worry alright? i'd be ok.
I'd call you guys. seriously. if i feel like dying. If cant take it anymore. I will. I promise.
I know you guys alwys got my back. and i'm majorly grateful for that.
But for now. Just this time. Let me have some time. To cry out eveyrthing. alright?
xinyi shing chun and liang hao. guess you're right.
I dun;t tell you guys stuff. you find it out from my blog. well. some of it anyways.
I'm sorry about that. i'd try to open up more ok?
and darling. I'm sorry. I didn mena to cup your phone. =(( yups.
i'm sorry if i'm in a real bad mood and i kind of took it out on you.
dun angry alright? =(
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