Saturday, May 3, 2008
you set me free. 11:09 AM
3 I WILL NOTS TO MY KIDS.1. I will never freaking throwing stuff at them.2. I won't be an abusive insensitive parent. who hurts kids emotionally or physically.3. I will not be controling my kid like shit. no curfew. cause 1 i believe something. if you want to get someone to listen to you. you make them UNDERSTAND. not canning or screaming. or emotional mistreating. cuase then they'll be acting out of fear not understanding you dumbshit. which kind of defeats the whole purpose does it not?? he said he should have tied me up to the chair when i was younger. not today some other day. when we're not fighting. WTF. what kind of parents do that. abusive. shit. the immediate thought after that was. i shouldd call child abusive, i even thought he was mad aas in crazy mad. TIE kids to a chair. wtf. i make total sense right? has . but fuck. guess what. let him see this i won live another day. cause his darn pride is there. He'd never admit his wrong. I get it I GIVE IN. i ddun do something menas i dun respect you. i dun listen and come home early menas i dun care about you. i dun stay home means i;ve forgotten about you. i dun eat my medicine means i dun care. i bust my phone bill means i;m taking you for granted. i dun.. i tell you the list goes on. you relaise i'm a teen. i'm not saying i know everything. i dun;t i;m just saying. hey. let me grow up on my own. true i need guidence. ohh you;re lackign here. you haven been spending much time with us. dun forget your work. reminders reminders not to miss out anything, NOT COMPLAINTS. whatever man. i get what you are freaking trying to say. I should take care of my own stuff. I get it. ok. i;m so trying to chnage. Aan i am. most of the time when i'm late i;d call you. most of the stuff now. And what hotel man. You wanna see hotel?? you wouldn even see me at all. ok?? you think i have nothing den stay at home?? i always have stuff on. but sometimes. i stay at home cause i choose. on sats and sundays. ok?? you guys dun get it do you. i said loads of times too. you ask me to be grateful you guys?? i am. i;m feeling the attachment with you guys for like.. probably 1st time in my life. i am happy i am grateful. maybe thats why i'm trying so hard. i can see you guys are trying too. i can so see. i'm not blind. just dun demand so much stuff at me at once. causse i hate control. you of all people should know that. and the otehr this is.. i;d tell you the truth. i dun like staying home. at all. has. cause most of the time. all i hear is. scoldings. naggings. crying. screaming. throwing tantrums. stomping. sad faces. angry faces. tell me. when is it. one day all of us. sit together. laugh. joke. play. without any anything. it's usually joy. mummy screaming. joys sad face. she looks like shes gonna cry. wenlin angry wenlin crying. daddy scolding him. i'm pissed. mummy's nagging. every night. if you were me. what would you do. laughing with your friends?? playing?? or.. actually going home to face this mess.
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Hi I'm Melody 